Just try to remember  it is just that, a feeling, not reality. Sometimes 
hard to differentiate I know.

Brad

At 08:14 AM 6/19/2007, you wrote:
>Great words, Brad. Yep, I'm going to look for Phil's home number in my 
>notes folder and give him a call.
>When I went in my room after my bath, the feeling hit me again. It was the 
>same thing, like a quiet but evil giant was standing next to me, just 
>waiting to pounce on me. It got so scary that I had to turn off my ceiling 
>fan. It made me think the whole ceiling fan, or the ceiling was going to 
>fall on my head and kill me.  Yep, I'm definitely going to call Phil.
>
>----- Original Message ----- From: "Brad D" <[log in to unmask]>
>To: <[log in to unmask]>
>Sent: Tuesday, June 19, 2007 9:39 AM
>Subject: Re: panic attack
>
>
>>Kim. I am glad it is over. One thing that is very important to remember 
>>that the enemy goes around roaring like a lion. The operative word here 
>>is the word "like". Meaning he isn't but acts like it. He has no power 
>>over you other than persuading you to fear. However, if you remember he 
>>is not a lion, is just a toothless loud mouth trying to put fear into 
>>you, or entice you to bring fear upon yourself, you have power over it 
>>because Christ is already in you. We don't have to wait for Christ 
>>to  come out of where he is to save the day, he is already in you, you 
>>have the mind of Christ. I have the mind of a musician,  sometimes I can 
>>work out music with ease and excitement that I've never known before, and 
>>sometimes there are times I lay my hands on the fret board, scrub the 
>>strings and seriously think... "What am I doing pretending I can write 
>>anything, I've been fooling myself  based on a couple happenstances." In 
>>those times is when I, me, in my mind, need to consciously be aware of 
>>what is happening and take action and realize the gift I've been given by 
>>God has not gone away, it is there, the ability is there and I only need 
>>to press in and not buy into the thoughts the went from momentary to 
>>monumental thoughts. They are not monumental truths , they are over 
>>inflated lies and fears based on things of which could be many that have 
>>my mind preoccupied with other things than being creative or artistic. 
>>Such is similar with the enemy and his inflated hot air, giving foot hold 
>>to the enemy is not necessarily a knowing or purposed thing. I picture 
>>the enemy as a door to door salesman, sorry if any of you are in cold 
>>call sales, no harm intended, but I picture him as a boisterous, over 
>>bearing and pushy bit of a salesman who knocks at the door and announcing 
>>himself through a closed door. If I crack the door to look at him to tell 
>>him to go away, I've just opened up the door enough for him to get his 
>>foot wedged between the door and the jam which I'll have a harder time 
>>now to close it. Sometimes in our lives we forget to latch the door, we 
>>think it is shut and locked, but it isn't, we didn't purposefully intend 
>>to leave it unlatched. We walked in, swung the door behind us, thought we 
>>heard it shut, but if we go up to the door and pull it without having 
>>need to turn the knob, to our surprise it will swing open. This too is 
>>sometimes the case when the enemy approaches the door, knocks on it and 
>>the door will open some and we are caught a bit off guard.   Nonetheless 
>>the surprise or startling  doesn't have to be continual. He might start 
>>yapping right away with lies and persuasion to make you believe things 
>>about yourself, but you can shut him up just in knowing truth. If I for 
>>instance, told you that I have signed you up to a public speaking 
>>contest, I use that instance because that is one of the most fearful 
>>things for many people, but if I told you I signed you up to a public 
>>speaking contest, one of a few things would happen. Either you'd become 
>>fearful and panic wondering what you are going to do. Which is based off 
>>of feeling you have no control over the situation, or that you believe 
>>yourself to be a poor public speaker and now you will make a fool of 
>>yourself all because of what I put upon you. That is one response. 
>>Another might be you would  set there with arms crossed and say "Oh. 
>>Really? Is that so? Well sorry pal but I ain't going." And you'd stand 
>>secure knowing that I have no power over you to make you go even if I 
>>tried to get a whole audience to expect you and if you don't show, it 
>>would make you look bad. You'd stand confident with no fear at all 
>>because you know there is no truth in the fact you have to show up for 
>>anything I signed you up for. Or perhaps another response could be that 
>>you are an excellent public speaker and you've taken what I've done to 
>>try to put fear into you, and you've used it against me and showed me up 
>>giving a speech on how folks can try to manipulate others and reduce my 
>>efforts to nothing. You'd be excited about that opportunity because you 
>>stood in the truth  that you are an excellent public speaker and you have 
>>no fear of it being otherwise. Just as we are to pray without ceasing, we 
>>do not always mumble to ourselves or do not stop thinking about our daily 
>>tasks to survive this world, but we have a heart attitude of prayer, that 
>>when an issue comes up prayer is immediate on that particular situation 
>>and even prior to that we have a almost involuntary prayer happening 
>>similar to our breathing. We don't consciously think, "breathe in, 
>>breathe out, breathe in, breathe out" nor do we think to make our heart 
>>beat the 60 to 70 times a minute it does, it is without effort or thought 
>>we do these things. And so ought our prayer be, and so ought our ability 
>>to stomp on the enemy at times when we find him approaching. Now we are 
>>humans,  have choices, are not perfect in our decisions or thoughts and 
>>so we find ourselves vulnerable, but working the muscle of recognition so 
>>the response time of truth comes in and wipes the lie and fear away like 
>>a marker on a white board or an eraser to chalk, we'll be better off. 
>>This is nothing in of our selves but  the Holy Spirit sent by Christ to 
>>live within us that gives us the ability to do these things but we do 
>>have to choose to which to give control, Christ or the enemy. You made 
>>mention of your fears of someone watching, lurking, spying, your 
>>relatives doing this as kids and that brought fear to you. I think you 
>>have already identified in part, the opening to the lie  which caused you 
>>the fear you experienced. I might recommend, if you aren't already doing 
>>so, looking into prayer counseling to help expose the lies and bring 
>>freedom to you and we happened to have just such a fellow on the list :) 
>>by the name of Phil.
>>
>>I'm glad it  has passed and with the same immediate self assuredness of 
>>your aunt walking in and scaring off the darkness, all the more with 
>>Christ who is the one with the true power to  bring permanent 
>>disbursement through healing in those areas.
>>
>>Brad
>>
>>
>>At 06:17 AM 6/19/2007, you wrote:
>>>Thanks. Anyway, I told him to flee from me in the name of Jesus. I 
>>>swear, though, it felt as if someone was hiding in the shadows watching 
>>>me. Ugh, scary!
>>>
>>>In a small way, it reminded me of spy movies, or about a trick my niece 
>>>and my cousin's daughter pulled on me awhile back, when they were spying on me
>>>
>>>and scaring me. Oh, it was awful! I don't ever want to experience 
>>>anything remotely like that again. Thanks to Jesus for allowing my aunt 
>>>to come home
>>>
>>>when she did. Otherwise, woo! I don't want to think about it. Trust me, 
>>>you don't want to experience anything like it. When I was walking toward 
>>>the den
>>>
>>>and had the feeling that I was going to fall right into hell, I was 
>>>almost paralyzed with fear, almost scared to take another step. Ugh! It 
>>>just sent chills
>>>
>>>up and down my spine, like a chilly and cold finger. Bugh! Oh Lord 
>>>Jesus, don't ever let me experience a feeling like that again. I'm one 
>>>of Your children.
>>>
>>>I plead Your blood over me. Thank You.
>>>
>>>I even quoted Scripture from Psalm 91, and even sang a few hymns. The 
>>>feeling didn't leave me until my aunt got home and I finally crashed.
>>>
>>>----- Original Message ----- From: "Cecily Ballenger" <[log in to unmask]>
>>>To: <[log in to unmask]>
>>>Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 2:36 PM
>>>Subject: Re: panic attack
>>>
>>>
>>>>Quote Scripture and rebuke the devil in the name of Jesus Christ.
>>>>
>>>>Cecily
>>>>
>>>>-----Original Message-----
>>>>From: The Electronic Church [mailto:[log in to unmask]] On
>>>>Behalf Of Kim Etheridge
>>>>Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 12:03 PM
>>>>To: [log in to unmask]
>>>>Subject: panic attack
>>>>
>>>>Hi. I was in the bathtub awhile ago, and all of a sudden, it felt like an
>>>>evil person or spirit was in the bathroom with me. Chills went up and down
>>>>my back. It scared me. I started singing hymns to make it go away, but when
>>>>it didn't work, I quoted a few sentences from psalm 91. It was like
>>>>something just stepped into the room and grabbed me. A feeling of dread 
>>>>came
>>>>
>>>>over me. It's like something terrible is about to happen. Pray please. Dear
>>>>Father in Heaven, take this feeling away from me, or help me understand 
>>>>what
>>>>
>>>>it means. I haven't slept a wink all night, and I've been awake all 
>>>>day, can
>>>>
>>>>you believe it? Plus, I had a bad feeling as I walked toward the den 
>>>>that if
>>>>
>>>>I stepped forward, I'd step through an opening in the floor and land right
>>>>into hell. I know that sounds silly, since I'm a Christian, but you 
>>>>know the
>>>>
>>>>devil will use any trick in the book to make someone afraid. He steals,
>>>>kills, and destroys. Note, the only reason I capitalized the word he is
>>>>because it was the first word in the sentence. To not do that would violate
>>>>grammar's rules. I wish I didn't have to capitalize it when talking about
>>>>the devil. However, when talking about Jesus, I could put it in big bold,
>>>>italicized, capitalized letters. Okay, I know, I'm being overdramatic, but
>>>>please pray for me.