Just try to remember it is just that, a feeling, not reality. Sometimes hard to differentiate I know. Brad At 08:14 AM 6/19/2007, you wrote: >Great words, Brad. Yep, I'm going to look for Phil's home number in my >notes folder and give him a call. >When I went in my room after my bath, the feeling hit me again. It was the >same thing, like a quiet but evil giant was standing next to me, just >waiting to pounce on me. It got so scary that I had to turn off my ceiling >fan. It made me think the whole ceiling fan, or the ceiling was going to >fall on my head and kill me. Yep, I'm definitely going to call Phil. > >----- Original Message ----- From: "Brad D" <[log in to unmask]> >To: <[log in to unmask]> >Sent: Tuesday, June 19, 2007 9:39 AM >Subject: Re: panic attack > > >>Kim. I am glad it is over. One thing that is very important to remember >>that the enemy goes around roaring like a lion. The operative word here >>is the word "like". Meaning he isn't but acts like it. He has no power >>over you other than persuading you to fear. However, if you remember he >>is not a lion, is just a toothless loud mouth trying to put fear into >>you, or entice you to bring fear upon yourself, you have power over it >>because Christ is already in you. We don't have to wait for Christ >>to come out of where he is to save the day, he is already in you, you >>have the mind of Christ. I have the mind of a musician, sometimes I can >>work out music with ease and excitement that I've never known before, and >>sometimes there are times I lay my hands on the fret board, scrub the >>strings and seriously think... "What am I doing pretending I can write >>anything, I've been fooling myself based on a couple happenstances." In >>those times is when I, me, in my mind, need to consciously be aware of >>what is happening and take action and realize the gift I've been given by >>God has not gone away, it is there, the ability is there and I only need >>to press in and not buy into the thoughts the went from momentary to >>monumental thoughts. They are not monumental truths , they are over >>inflated lies and fears based on things of which could be many that have >>my mind preoccupied with other things than being creative or artistic. >>Such is similar with the enemy and his inflated hot air, giving foot hold >>to the enemy is not necessarily a knowing or purposed thing. I picture >>the enemy as a door to door salesman, sorry if any of you are in cold >>call sales, no harm intended, but I picture him as a boisterous, over >>bearing and pushy bit of a salesman who knocks at the door and announcing >>himself through a closed door. If I crack the door to look at him to tell >>him to go away, I've just opened up the door enough for him to get his >>foot wedged between the door and the jam which I'll have a harder time >>now to close it. Sometimes in our lives we forget to latch the door, we >>think it is shut and locked, but it isn't, we didn't purposefully intend >>to leave it unlatched. We walked in, swung the door behind us, thought we >>heard it shut, but if we go up to the door and pull it without having >>need to turn the knob, to our surprise it will swing open. This too is >>sometimes the case when the enemy approaches the door, knocks on it and >>the door will open some and we are caught a bit off guard. Nonetheless >>the surprise or startling doesn't have to be continual. He might start >>yapping right away with lies and persuasion to make you believe things >>about yourself, but you can shut him up just in knowing truth. If I for >>instance, told you that I have signed you up to a public speaking >>contest, I use that instance because that is one of the most fearful >>things for many people, but if I told you I signed you up to a public >>speaking contest, one of a few things would happen. Either you'd become >>fearful and panic wondering what you are going to do. Which is based off >>of feeling you have no control over the situation, or that you believe >>yourself to be a poor public speaker and now you will make a fool of >>yourself all because of what I put upon you. That is one response. >>Another might be you would set there with arms crossed and say "Oh. >>Really? Is that so? Well sorry pal but I ain't going." And you'd stand >>secure knowing that I have no power over you to make you go even if I >>tried to get a whole audience to expect you and if you don't show, it >>would make you look bad. You'd stand confident with no fear at all >>because you know there is no truth in the fact you have to show up for >>anything I signed you up for. Or perhaps another response could be that >>you are an excellent public speaker and you've taken what I've done to >>try to put fear into you, and you've used it against me and showed me up >>giving a speech on how folks can try to manipulate others and reduce my >>efforts to nothing. You'd be excited about that opportunity because you >>stood in the truth that you are an excellent public speaker and you have >>no fear of it being otherwise. Just as we are to pray without ceasing, we >>do not always mumble to ourselves or do not stop thinking about our daily >>tasks to survive this world, but we have a heart attitude of prayer, that >>when an issue comes up prayer is immediate on that particular situation >>and even prior to that we have a almost involuntary prayer happening >>similar to our breathing. We don't consciously think, "breathe in, >>breathe out, breathe in, breathe out" nor do we think to make our heart >>beat the 60 to 70 times a minute it does, it is without effort or thought >>we do these things. And so ought our prayer be, and so ought our ability >>to stomp on the enemy at times when we find him approaching. Now we are >>humans, have choices, are not perfect in our decisions or thoughts and >>so we find ourselves vulnerable, but working the muscle of recognition so >>the response time of truth comes in and wipes the lie and fear away like >>a marker on a white board or an eraser to chalk, we'll be better off. >>This is nothing in of our selves but the Holy Spirit sent by Christ to >>live within us that gives us the ability to do these things but we do >>have to choose to which to give control, Christ or the enemy. You made >>mention of your fears of someone watching, lurking, spying, your >>relatives doing this as kids and that brought fear to you. I think you >>have already identified in part, the opening to the lie which caused you >>the fear you experienced. I might recommend, if you aren't already doing >>so, looking into prayer counseling to help expose the lies and bring >>freedom to you and we happened to have just such a fellow on the list :) >>by the name of Phil. >> >>I'm glad it has passed and with the same immediate self assuredness of >>your aunt walking in and scaring off the darkness, all the more with >>Christ who is the one with the true power to bring permanent >>disbursement through healing in those areas. >> >>Brad >> >> >>At 06:17 AM 6/19/2007, you wrote: >>>Thanks. Anyway, I told him to flee from me in the name of Jesus. I >>>swear, though, it felt as if someone was hiding in the shadows watching >>>me. Ugh, scary! >>> >>>In a small way, it reminded me of spy movies, or about a trick my niece >>>and my cousin's daughter pulled on me awhile back, when they were spying on me >>> >>>and scaring me. Oh, it was awful! I don't ever want to experience >>>anything remotely like that again. Thanks to Jesus for allowing my aunt >>>to come home >>> >>>when she did. Otherwise, woo! I don't want to think about it. Trust me, >>>you don't want to experience anything like it. When I was walking toward >>>the den >>> >>>and had the feeling that I was going to fall right into hell, I was >>>almost paralyzed with fear, almost scared to take another step. Ugh! It >>>just sent chills >>> >>>up and down my spine, like a chilly and cold finger. Bugh! Oh Lord >>>Jesus, don't ever let me experience a feeling like that again. I'm one >>>of Your children. >>> >>>I plead Your blood over me. Thank You. >>> >>>I even quoted Scripture from Psalm 91, and even sang a few hymns. The >>>feeling didn't leave me until my aunt got home and I finally crashed. >>> >>>----- Original Message ----- From: "Cecily Ballenger" <[log in to unmask]> >>>To: <[log in to unmask]> >>>Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 2:36 PM >>>Subject: Re: panic attack >>> >>> >>>>Quote Scripture and rebuke the devil in the name of Jesus Christ. >>>> >>>>Cecily >>>> >>>>-----Original Message----- >>>>From: The Electronic Church [mailto:[log in to unmask]] On >>>>Behalf Of Kim Etheridge >>>>Sent: Monday, June 18, 2007 12:03 PM >>>>To: [log in to unmask] >>>>Subject: panic attack >>>> >>>>Hi. I was in the bathtub awhile ago, and all of a sudden, it felt like an >>>>evil person or spirit was in the bathroom with me. Chills went up and down >>>>my back. It scared me. I started singing hymns to make it go away, but when >>>>it didn't work, I quoted a few sentences from psalm 91. It was like >>>>something just stepped into the room and grabbed me. A feeling of dread >>>>came >>>> >>>>over me. It's like something terrible is about to happen. Pray please. Dear >>>>Father in Heaven, take this feeling away from me, or help me understand >>>>what >>>> >>>>it means. I haven't slept a wink all night, and I've been awake all >>>>day, can >>>> >>>>you believe it? Plus, I had a bad feeling as I walked toward the den >>>>that if >>>> >>>>I stepped forward, I'd step through an opening in the floor and land right >>>>into hell. I know that sounds silly, since I'm a Christian, but you >>>>know the >>>> >>>>devil will use any trick in the book to make someone afraid. He steals, >>>>kills, and destroys. Note, the only reason I capitalized the word he is >>>>because it was the first word in the sentence. To not do that would violate >>>>grammar's rules. I wish I didn't have to capitalize it when talking about >>>>the devil. However, when talking about Jesus, I could put it in big bold, >>>>italicized, capitalized letters. Okay, I know, I'm being overdramatic, but >>>>please pray for me.