how is one supposed to hang in there.

Guys, I don't know what happened, all I know is that one minute it was 12:30
and next thing I know, I'm on the floor, with my head throbbing, the bed,
not even half a foot behind me, and it's 2:00.  I get the feeling that
either I fainted, or passed out in general, and hit my head on the bed.
That's the only explaination I have.  I literally now feel like barfing, but
my parents refuse to give me any medicine, be it OTC or not...  They won't
even let me have a tylonol, for that matter, and when I try to get something
to drink, or eat, they shove me out of the way of my own refrigirator.  I'm
really getting quite sick...  i was talking with a friend tonight on the
phone, and her words were, that I sounded totally spaced out.

When I put my color tester device to my face, and hit the button, normally
it's supposed to say:  caucasion white.  This time, it said snow whyte.  My
hands feel literally like ice cyckles and my head feels like a volcano.

It's so bad, that I literally can hear my heart beating in my head.

i just don't know what is left to do...   Even if I don't take the route to
end my life, my life will probably end itself anyway at this rate.


Chris.


----- Original Message -----
From: "Phil Scovell" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Sunday, February 29, 2004 1:07 AM
Subject: Re: Note to Vicki as well as rest of list


> Chris,
>
> I sort of doubt that.  I don't have any doubt about your salvation and you
> aren't the only one on this list who wants off the planet.  Two years ago
I
> said the same thing dozens of times each day I was hurting so badly.  I
> personally know others on this list who have not only wished but attempted
> it so, brother, you are far from alone on the way you feel.  Many of us
here
> understand and we pray for you every day and twice as much when you
request
> prayer.  So just keep hanging in there.
>
> Phil.
>
>
> Phil.