bear w/ me..i need to vent a bit... i hope y'all dont mind:)
I'm an disabled mom to a beautiful 3mo old daughter and before I gave birth,
i had this expectation of what it was going to be like to be an SAH Disabled
parent.. All my life, I have adapted to whatever came my way, and nothing
made me feel like parenthood would be any different - until now..
For the first 10weeks of my daughters life, i tried to do everything for her/
my household by myself... it was very tiring and it was taking a toll on me
physically and emotionally.. So i got someone to come in and just help me out
a little bit so i didn't feel so overwhelmed, which was great... but here's
my problem... my baby likes her more than she likes me... i mean, i've told
this lady to  let me be in charge, and not to hold my child, but its hard for
her not to..
my daughter cries for her, i mean it's breaking my heart and i am crying even
as i type this... i feel so inadequate because i cant stand up and throw her
over her shoulder and jiggle her as she likes, this lady is more graceful w/
handling her.. This lady has even received my daughters first precious
giggle.. I feel like the only time I ever get to be close to her is when we
are playing or when we are nursing... I want to hold my daughter so badly and
i want her to be content with me... Can anyone give me suggestions?? If not,
it's ok, because i'm glad i got to get this off my chest