Phil,

I'm excited to hear about upcoming Services in your home, and those 
things you are going to talk about. I definitely need to hear them, 
as some times, I just feel num inside, and I feel like I just can't 
pray or even ask Jesus in the right way how to do things.

I'm not a very diciplined person when it comes to loosing weight, and 
I'm not as together as people think I am.

Blessings,
Pat Ferguson




At 03:54 PM 5/6/2007, you wrote:
>Have you ever been in a church meeting that was so spiritually
>powerful, and you needed to go to the bathroom but you wouldn't
>leave because you were afraid you might miss something?  I thought
>I was going to explode before it was over today, literally, but I
>didn't miss anything.  We had multiple prayers offered, two
>prophecies from individuals to other individuals.  I didn't
>realize it until now, but my back is healed so we had at least one
>healing I know of personally.  We could have filled a large bath
>tub with all the tears we shed together.  The Holy Spirit was that
>tangible.  I cried like a baby at times and my body shook.  No, we
>aren't Quakers either.  I have been in quite the struggle, as we
>say, but more like a knock down, drag out freaking war for several
>months.  Yesterday, Saturday was the worst day I have had for
>literally months, and maybe even years.  I even got out 4 tapes on
>faith, listened to them all in 24 hours, Friday night and
>Saturday, and when I was done, I didn't feel any better.  In fact,
>I felt worse, although, I don't know how that would be possible
>but it was.  I told the Lord in the middle of the night, I was out
>of answers and if He didn't explain it to me so it would apply to
>me personally in my situation, and I could, in turn, explain it to
>others and, most importantly, live by it myself, then I was dead
>in the water.  He kept bringing back to my memory all the miracles
>and acts of faith I have been apart of personally in the last five
>years and saying, "See?  You used your faith in this place and it
>worked."  I still wasn't getting it.  In fact, I was so desperate,
>I was up until 2 this morning talking to the Lord about it all.
>This morning when I got up, with in moments, before I was even
>clearly awake, the Lord showed me how it works, faith that is, and
>told me what to do now, regardless of the circumstances, and He
>would do His part in bringing it to pass.  Sandy spoke on Abraham
>taking his son Isaac up to the mountain to be sacrificed in church
>today for our lesson because it had been ministering to her for
>months.  The presence of the Holy Spirit was so thick in our
>living room during our meeting this morning, you couldn't hardly
>talk or breathe.  It was a catharsis, that is, a cleansing, a
>spiritual cleansing of sorts.  I cried and so was everybody else.
>John, Vicki's husband, showed up unexpectedly for his first
>service since his miraculous surgery April ninth.  He cried and
>gave his testimony so we all ended up crying then, too, and
>everything went up hill from there.  I do mean up hill, too, and
>not down hill.  I know something now I have been seeking for
>literally my entire life, or since I was about 18 years old and
>began Bible college as a freshman.  I can know, for the first
>time, that I can live out what the Lord showed me and it is so
>simple, I can show anyone else how it works and how they can do
>the same thing.  I have never in my entire life been thankful for
>adversity before than this morning.  I even thanked God for
>putting me in this position, or at least allowing it, so I could
>praise Him even more and watch Him clear a path through the
>darkness in my behalf.  There were things which happened this
>morning in our little group you likely will never see in a big
>church no matter how many times you go.  Not because a church is
>big but because their agenda is often size and not Jesus.  I told
>everyone this morning that starting next Sunday, I would be
>teaching and explaining the basics of the following topics.
>
>One.  How to pray and get your prayers answered and what to do if
>it seems not to be working.
>Two.  How to make your faith work and what to do when it seems not
>to be working.
>Three.  How to confront the darkness and what to do when it
>doesn't seem to be working.
>Four.  How to take every thought captive and what to do when it
>doesn't seem to be working.
>Five.  How, and literally what, to pray to clear the air of
>blockages and what to do when it seems not to be working.
>Six.  How to be healed and what to do when it doesn't seem to be
>working.
>Seven.  The last resort you take before giving up completely and
>what to do when it seems not to be working.
>
>More will follow but this is a starter for the next few weeks.  We
>claimed our new building today.  I called a real estate friend I
>have known for 35 years, who helped us get our house, and he has
>worked with many churches, too.  I told him to call and tell them
>we want to buy the building.  I told him not to tell them that we
>don't have the money but we know where to get it.  Our new address
>will soon be 10 Fenton, Lakewood, Colorado which is about a mile
>from my home.
>
>Phil.