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> In talking with George in recent days, I have learned some very unsettling
> things. I tried calling George one day this week and their answering
> machine came on. The out going message was still their daughter's voice
> recording the message. I said something to George about it that day and he
> said that Vivian will not allow him to change it. When I asked why, he said
> that his wife still believes that Jennifer is going to come walking up to
> the front door so she will not do anything with her clothes or personal
> things nor will she allow the answering machine to be changed because
> Jennifer is going to be resurrected. Now there are two things about this I
> want to say. First of all, I am the first in line to believe God can still
> raise people from the dead. Secondly, I am the first to say this isn't one
> of those cases where it is going to happen. I know why, too. Jennifer
> wanted to die. How do I know this? Jennifer told her older brother, he is
> married and has several children, a year ago, If I die, don't cry over me.
> Since Jennifer's death, they have discovered that her room is filled with
> all the drugs that Jennifer was supposed to be taking. They even were the
> some of the drugs that would keep the bacteria that killed her from
> developing. Sandy, my wife, types this sort of thing often. Young people,
> but it can be old people as well, often stop, at some point, taking their
> medications because they are sick of it. They decide in their heart, I will
> either live or die but anything is better than this. Jennifer was also
> living a lie the last three or four years of her life. Some of what she was
> doing was illegal and she was almost arrested once but George was able to
> fix the problem before that happened. Yes, Vivian knows all of this. So
> what's the problem? First, what Vivian is facing isn't all that uncommon.
> Her feelings are based upon several characteristics of grief alone but it
> isn't just the grief, in her case, causing, what we might consider, bizarre
> thinking. First, Vivian is holding herself responsible for her daughter's
> death. This is a lie of the Enemy, of course, but right now, Vivian doesn't
> know this. why? She is being deceived. Secondly, it is her own motherly
> instincts working against her. A mother is going to feel responsibility for
> her daughter, or son, including their behavior, sickness, problems, and
> everything else about them. Why? Because, they gave birth to them.
> Father's feel these same feelings for their offspring but for different
> reasons. Take my word for it; I know. In Vivian's situation, however, my
> spirit tells me that the death of their daughter is related to something
> earlier. For example, I know that her mother died about seven years ago.
> Only the Lord knows everything else that is related to the way Vivian is
> acting right now. George emailed me this morning and told me that he sat
> Vivian down and had a long talk with her last night. He explained that
> their daughter wouldn't be coming back and that their daughter wanted to
> die. Oh, by the way, Jennifer also told her brother, her saving hope was
> getting new lungs. If she didn't get those, she said, she was a goner.
> When the lung transplant was canceled, she said she was going to die. New
> lungs isn't the Lord. He was to be her focus; not new lungs because He can
> give someone new lungs if they are putting Him first in their belief system.
> Jennifer was not doing that. I know this for many more reasons than I am
> mentioning here. Regardless, last night, after George talked with his wife,
> she sat there as if she never heard a word and nothing has changed. So, as
> part of all of this that has been going on, I wanted you to know more so you
> could pray. Grief is a very odd thing. It can last for years. People can
> have their entire lives totally changed due to grief. Regardless of how odd
> the symptoms may be, grief is normal, up to a point, but believe me, as one
> speaking from personal experience, grief can mask attacks of the Enemy.
> When my mom died two years ago, the Enemy tried to fool me into thinking
> something about myself, related to my mother, which took several days before
> the dust settled enough for me to hear the truth from the Lord that set me
> free from a trap. What Vivian, and George for that matter, are facing, is a
> biggy but it is also just as big of opportunity for the Lord to bring
> healing to places that may have remained covered for their entire lives.
> Just keep praying for them when you think of them.
>
> Phil.