Oh Loving One! I know how you feel. I don't know if my family will ever be saved. Many lovings and squeezings. Love you, Pat Ferguson At 06:27 AM 3/6/05, you wrote: >Hi all, or I should say morning all. > >I am in an ugly mood, I should be happy I heard from my sister but I'm not. >She is trying to tell me she is behaving when I know in her voice and >manners she isn't. > >I know that God gives us the family He gives us for a reason but you know >sometimes I just feel like throwing up my hands and saying ok God I'm done. >But then I know that if something happened to any of my family I'd feel >guilty thinking i'd not done enough. I'm blessed with so much both in the >world and spiritually but it seems nothing I do or can do helps my family >because they want to but don't want to help themselves. > >I'm sorry all, I'm just rambling its one of those days where I don't want to >go to church I don't want to sing I don't even know if I want to cry or what >I want to do I just know that I am not sure how much more I can deal with. >It seems as though I give my family an inch and they all take a mile. When >I say my family I mean my mom and my sister and even the children but I >really can't blame them at all I know that they learn from my mom and Linda. > >Ok all, I think I'm through rambling I don't know if any of this made sense >and I'm sorry if it is long delete if you like. > > >Lelia Struve email [log in to unmask] msn [log in to unmask]