Chris, You are loving. I will try to call you this evening, as I do want to talk to you. No, I'm not mad, and no, you aren't in trouble. <smile> I'm praying for you. Love and Blessings, Pat Ferguson At 08:46 AM 3/1/04 -0500, you wrote: >Folks, I'd like to take the oppertunity to really say some things to all of >you all that i feel are very necessary to say. Don't worry nothing bad, I >promise. please just hear me out... > >The past few days, have exceptionally been very difficult for me >emotionally. my mom, dad, and I got in a really really huge fight, i had an >alergic reaction to a new medication I'd been put on, which thus made me >very moody, and very physically sick; to the point of upchucking. It's just >been very hectic. I want you all to know that I do care about each of you >all very deeply... very very deeply. Thus, and therefore,I need to take the >time to really stop what I am now doing, and sincerely apologize to all of >you all. my posts over the past few days i know: have been incredibly >rude, very disrespectful, and above all very profane. Heck, I even used the >d word, on a list, that specificly in the guide lines says not to... I've >not only broken list guidelines severely, but I have also majorly probably, >by doing so, lost a ton of respect from many members toward me. I don't >think I can repair the emotional scars that I've left on many of you all in >that regard, however, I do wish to move forwerd. Guys, I was way entirely >out of line, and I thank you all for holding so much patients with me. i >certainly don't deserve it. I really acted like a fool, not to mention a >complete idiot/jerk. And plus, what makes matters even worse, is that I >didn't even give you all a fair chance to speak. i take the complete >responsibility for my wrong actions, and for any consequences that might be >yet to come, I will take them gladly, without pouting or putting up a fuss. >Bottom line is I made a major scene of myself that was totally unnecessary, >and totally uncalled for... Thus, I'd especially like to apologize both, to >Vickie, as well as phil. My actions were completely unjustified, and were >not fair to the behalf of others. i'd like to please offer my dearest >apology. > >Thank you. > > >Chris.