Hi Kat, Sorry to hear about the anniversary. > . His > was a life truly wasted. He would have been a brilliant writer if he had > not made the choices he did. > Why do say you this? I am sure while he was alive he did many that impacted people. Lives are like ripples in the pond. No life no matter how short is wasted. Think about the good things he did - not how he died. Do not feel guilty its not your fault. It was choice he made, but perhaps even beyond that - it was what was meant to happen. I think death is death where it comes by one's own hand, illness, accident or old age. We have no idea - why, how or when we will die - who is to say any type of death is unnatural. Honor him and hope his spirit has found the peace in the next life he couldn't find in this one. Brightest Blessings -Trisha