can you spell "sir, your ass is fired!" -----Original Message----- From: Jennifer Zubko [mailto:[log in to unmask]] Sent: Tuesday, January 29, 2002 9:43 PM To: [log in to unmask] Subject: Need to vent-- ITB, Pain, etc. Hi Everyone, Sorry, but I need to vent. I sent what I considered was a nice, rather diplomatic e-mail to the neurologist who did my intrathecal baclofen trial today, asking (what I thought was politely), if he could speak with the neurosurgeon to see if my surgerry might be done sometime this month, while I am still at home, so I don't have to live the rest of my semester in pain, half doped up on morphine, clonazepam, and oxazazepam. I got a very icy reply back saying that he would not "harrass Dr. Parrent" (neurosurgeon), regarding my pump placement, and basically not to e-mail the neurologist anymore because if all of his patients e-mailed him as much as I did (three times this weekend to correct a mistake that he made regarding an EMG the neurologiust swore he had not ordered for me when he really did order the test), he would not get any work done. From my point of view, I a, just asking questions that SHOULD HAVE BEEN ANSWERED AND WERE NOT DUE TO THE PHYSICIANS LACK OF TIME, THE NEUROSURGEON BEING IN THE OPERATING ROOM THE WHOLE DAY OF MY TESTING, ETC. The fact remains that because I attend school in Ottawa, I can't have surgery whenever my name (oh sorry NUMBER, BECAUSE THATS WHAT I AM FEELING LIKE) COMES UP ON THEIR PRETTTY, PERFECT LITTLE LIST. I am in so much pain, and I CAN'T HANDLE HOW TIRED THE ORAL MEDS MAKE ME, EVEN THOUGH THEY HELP. I had really hoped that these people would be more compassionate, but apparently, they ARE NOT. I don't know what to do... I can't handle this anymore, and just wanted so much for things to go my way for once... The surgery takes only 1 and a half hours out of their lives, and can improve mine so much... Can't anybody see that? I am just so tired of suffering, and being told my surgery isn't important because it is not anything life threatening. I can't handle this. I had wanted to be a physician for awhile, but don't think I have the heart to see people as numbers. Does anyone have advice of things to read or do? I am beside myself with pain, both physical and emotional at the moment. Please say a few prayers for me. I need them. Jenn