Deri, I have enjoyed yr. wry sense of humor. Some of us have a biological addiction to alcohol. It is a real disease. Like many here, I used to drink at night to destress from school, and because I was lonely. I don't know if there is a correlation, but I've had depression since I was nine. Once I got the depression under control, I no longer desired alcohol to assist me. I'll defer to the distinguished, dr. greer to elucidate on this. mag