In a message dated 9/19/00 10:54:14 AM CST, [log in to unmask] writes: << Without self-esteem, I was living a fear-based life. One of them, a fear of being left alone, was instrumental in my adopting a vegan diet, a natural hygienic lifestyle, a fruitarian existence. On such an "extreme" lifestyle, I was able to feel special and draw attention to myself. "Hey, look at me, I'm weird! I belong to a special small segment of the world's population. Let me tell you why I'm special!" When I had no need to "be something," I was able to establish a dietary that was more suited to my biology. >> very honest of you to discuss this...you seem to have overcome your fears. good for you! Mary San Antonio Tx