I'm really sorry you have such a hard time with your CP. I see my CP as a blessing. I've already shared all of that with you, so I won't go into details. I will say look on the positive, you graduated college and you have 2 jobs. Cindy C. P.S. HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY! On Tue, 4 Jul 2000 11:48:59 -0500 Perk <[log in to unmask]> writes: > Hi Fellow listmates: > > I'm going to combine this all in to one E-Mail. > > First , I would like to introduce myself. I was born on July 5, > 1971. It > was a complicated birth. . . I couldn't cry , breathe or suck. The > doctors > thought I would be a vegetable the rest of my life. As a result of > all of > this , I was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy at the age of three a > half . I > am very physically disabled because of all of this. I can't walk , > talk , > or feed myself in the 'normal way." When I was four years old , I > was the > Cerebral Palsy Poster child. I went to Day Care for that had > disabilities > and Early Childhood. Then I went through all of school. When I was > in > fourth grade , I was put in to a special education class in school. > I used > to to drool a lot and I had a surgery to stop that. When I was a > freshman > in high school , I had what looked like seizures but actually it was > suicidal attempts. I won the award for the outstanding handicapped > citizen > for the state of Wisconsin. I went to college and double majored in > Data > Entry and Accounting. I update telephone directories for a living. > I do > about twenty to thirty a year. I do it right from my home. I also > make > and sell my own greeting cards. As I mentioned before , I have had > a lot of > problems with drepression and suicide. From 1992 to 1998 I was in > counseling and from 1994-96, I was hospitalized seven times because > of this. > The reason of all of this is because I couldn't cope with having a > disability. My family consists of a father , a mother and three > brothers. > I also have seven nieces and nephews . I collect angels. I'm > really > involved on the Internet. I'm on several of ListServs, ICQ, AOL > Instant > Messenger , and mIRC. My ICQ UIN # is 16632777. My screen name for > AOL > Instant Messenger is KJPink. The servers that I'm usually on on > mIRC is > BrightNet or ChatWorks. I have a Home WebPage . It is at > http://homepages.msn.com/WindowsWay/kjpink/. > > It seems to me like my depression is coming back. Under my > depression is a > lot of rage and hurt. I don't want to be like this (a person living > with > Cerebral Palsy) all of my life. This past weekend all of the family > were > home and they did some activities that I couldn't do and I felt left > out. > Is it normal to feel this way? > > School was hard for me. I was put in to a class that I didn't > belong. Also > , I was teased a lot. > AOL Instant Messenger ScreenName KJPink > ICQ UIN # 16632777 > http://homepages.msn.com/WindowsWay/kjpink/ > SafetyEd International's WebSite: http://www.safetyed.org