Hi....no bashing please!!!  I feel so confused!!  I am feeling like a bad mom today :-(  I was over my friend's house and Hunter (1month 2 days old) was looking very uncomfortable, arching his back, flailing his arms, and contorting his face in his sleep....and then there were the crying jags and she begged me (has been for 2 weeks) to just TRY formula....so I gave in....I decided if I am breastfeeding for ME then that's selfish so I need to see if my  milk is the problem (I know breastmilk is not a problem in general but with all Tyler's allergies and reflux and me eliminating the top allergens from my diet, I can not eliminate anything else and if that's the problem I HAVE to know).  So I put him on Good Start for a 3 day trial and I am pumping and freezing every 2 hours....it cant hurt....I need an answer...but I feel sooooooooo bad and like a failure....I am so dedicated and such a proponent of breastfeeding and I wanted to do it for as long as possible, I will be so sad if I can't (but thankful I caught the problem, if that makes sense)....the guilt is eating me alive....whineeeeeeeeeeeeee :(  I just had to tell someone, please tell me I am not a bad mom?!  I just want my son to be comfortable, healthy and happy!

Thanks for listening to me whine.

Nancy

"My  SONS are my greatest accomplishment and the opportunity to raise THEM is my greatest challenge"