Rhonda,
    I can't imagine what it must be like to watch someone in so much pain or
be in her shoes.  I know that a family member of mine is going through alot
of the same things.  It is so sad.  We just have to keep praying that the
Lord's will be done in her life.

Amy
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From: "Rhonda Partain" <[log in to unmask]>
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Sent: Friday, February 24, 2006 10:48 PM
Subject: Toni's email


> Here is a message I got about Christian today! How awfully hard it must be
> watching someone you love in such grait pain,
>
> It has been a day!
>
> The side effects from all the radiation and chemo are reaching a peak.
> Constant nausea, vomitting and the sores that are covering the inside of
her
> mouth
> down into her stomach. They have increased her morphine and the
anti-nausea
> meds. Her blood pressure is back up,probably because the pain is
> intensifying.
> She threw up blood a while ago. Now they have ordered platelets. I am told
> that days like this will continue.
>
> Helplessness is the word that probably sums up what I'm feeling. This is
one
> of the days that I have to draw on what's already been "deposited in the
> bank",
> so to speak.
>
> As I sit, I remember a prayer that Kathryn Kuhlman prayed,
>
> "Not some of Thee, and some me,
>
> But all of Thee and none of me."
>
> Lord, that I may decrease...all of me, my worries, concerns, and feelings
of
> helplessness.
>
> So that You may increase...all that You are.
>
> "You are the God who performs miracles: You display Your power among the
> peoples." Psalm 77:14 (LT)
>
> Strangely enough as I sat to write this, my eyes just fell on a book that
> was given to me. Right in the middle of the page in huge, bold-black, 1"
> letters,
> reads:
>
> WHEN YOU ARE GRIPPED BY FEAR
>
> As you pick the book up, in 1/4" gray letters, just above the bold-black
> ones, reads:
>
> I am with you
>
> I understand marketing. But the way the book design looks is ironic. When
we
> as christians face trials and tribulations or in my words are having a
day,
> doesn't our life sometimes look that way? Our "issue" way big and the
great
> "I AM" fades to small gray.
>
> So today/tonight I sit and pray....
>
> "Not some of Thee, and some of me;
>
> But all of Thee, and none of me!"
>
> Arise great I AM. Arise in Christian. Arise in me.
>
> Your prayers are so appreciated!
> Rhonda