Guys, this is so painful.  i'm gonna try to make my way through this mail,
without tears, but don't count on it...

    I need to ask for prayer.  My dad was just called on a jobsite where he
is going to have to be flighing out early tomorrow morning to Texas.  i hate
it when he does this!  it seems like he's quite often (not literally, but
more seemingly) quite often, in Texas, and a corse we have family there,
that I've told yall billions of times about.  i can't no matter what I try
accept the fact that all these times he's gone, and I almost never if ever!
get to go.  OK, OK, OK? OK? OK!  I'll admit it!  I'm jealous!  I shouldn't
be, and I know I'm in sin for being so, but i almost feel I can't help it.
You can't imagine how badly I want to be him as this hour.  Don't say you
really do, and can relate.  Believe me!  No you can't!  just take me for my
word!  Anyway, i'm probably not gonna get to sleep now.  I don't know why I
had to be told this tonight, and couldn't a just waited until the morhning
once he'd already left then told me.  I hope I don't put up a big scene when
he does leave, but knowing me, I might.  I'm sort a filled with mixed
emotions.  A ton of anger/fury, embarrassment, anguish, agany, confusion,
longing, jealousy, you name it, and even then of more, the whole 9 yards.
just pray for God to help me endure this, as without his strength, at this
point, I can't, and won't.


BTW:  I need to know where in the Bible the most discriptive most detailed
discription of the Crucifixion is located.  (Again, I say, in, the, Bible?
quote? hint, hint?)

Chris.