Hi all, I am feeling really convicted since last night.  I know I have been
honest with you all and have told you that I live with Todd in separate
rooms but we do live together.  WEll, at that time I did not think anything
of it because in my view which the view according to Lelia I was still not
sinning because I was not fornicating well, last night my friend and brother
Bob and I brought it up unknowingly *grin

anyway, he brought it to both Todd and my attention that verse about
abstaining from all appearances of evil ouch.  I just read that and you know
what its right in front of me its right htere abstain from all appearances
of evil.  So in Lelia's view she was right because she didn't sleep with
Todd, but to the world, well, its like you know we are blind and so there
fore a lot of times we are on display to the world, and well, I guess I knew
but didn
't see this but as christians or supposed christians thats to me not you but
anyway, we are on display for the world.  I guess I'm upset hurt angry
frustrated with me because as long as Todd and I have been living together
who have I misguided on accident.  Well, today I confessed this to those who
I had closest contact christian wise with.  I got some replies.  I guess I
feel better but I'm still upset because I guess I question myself what have
I done to Todd, he is now confused he is still a baby christian and I feel
so bad because well, I know he is supposed to be a spiritual leader and I
think that in our marriage he willb e but man I have confused him I have not
helped him grow.  I guess I feel like the adulterous woman in Proverbs ok
that's a little exaggerated but I think you all catch my meaning.  I guess
this is what Ig et for not reading my bible enough.

I guess my prayer is that I see things through God's will now and if He says
we ought not to live together even though we only have like six weeks that
is what I will do.

Thanks all for taking time to read this book lol


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