Angel,

I am so very sorry to hear your loss. The mix of emotions, that of loss, 
that of relief even, and how they collide with eachother in your heart 
must be difficult to work out but very understandable and natural 
considering, if in fact that is the case. We're pleased you have returned 
for as long as you can stay on list. God's peace to you and also to  touch 
your son's heart as well.

Brad


on 04:48 PM 6/4/2006, Angel said:

A voice from the past.  A lot has happened since last I wrote.  My e-mail 
wasn't working.  I thought I would need help fixing it.  I got tired of 
feeling incompetent so I decided to try to fix it myself.  I was 
successful which proves I am not quite as stupid as I thought.  I have 
some sad news to tell you all.  May 21 my husband died.  I suppose it was 
for the best.  I began feeding him with a baby bottle, and he became 
unable to suck from that so I had resigned myselfto the idea I would have 
to put him into a nursing home after all.  I was going to check into 
nursing homes that very day when I went to try to feed him, and found him 
dead.  It took me a while to admit to myself he was really dead.  I 
thought he was just comatose and only needed to be taken to the 
hospital.  The paramedics told me he was dead and at last I had to admit 
he was.  My son was rather stoic but you never know how another really 
takes a thing like that.  The service was really nice.  His beep ball team 
was there as well as some from his childhood neighborhood.  One of our 
friends even came straight from the hospital to be there.  I was very 
touched by that gesture.  I trust you all missed me while I was gone and 
not much stirring happened while I was gone.  I would ask your prayers 
though as I am still coming to terms with the loss.