Chris, no one knows how to be the perfect husband.  <smile>

earlier, Chris Gilland, wrote:
>Thank you Ned.
>
>I don't know:  I'm actually, not by any means getting cold feet, but, I must
>admit, I had a little bit of anxiety come over me tonight, of fear.  I just
>wanna be the perfect husband, by I don't know how to do that.
>
>
>I never wanna do anything wrong to her.  I'm feeling somewhat better now,
>but i still do feel a little weird.  I guess, Phil, that's what you meant by
>mixed emotions, and not to even attempt to understand them.  Man, we really
>missed you up on prayer and praise tonight.  Phil, it was so beautiful.  I
>really hope we were able to hope Paulette.  And BTW, Paulette, you call me
>tomorrow if you need me.  704-307-4810
>
>I know I really shouldn't post my number on this list, but I know and trust
>all of you all here.  I too, don't have a problem giving my number out.
>Hey, if it's someone I don't wanna talk to, I just don't.  But, Paulette,
>you are so welcome to call me.  If you get this before tomorrow, I can't
>promise you I'll be awake if you call, but if you need to talk, try me.  If
>I don't answer, try again.  It won't take too many times, and I'll wake up.
>
>I only want you to be happy.  Anyway, steering back to my main point, yeah,
>I've been feeling really weird.  It's like I'm really depressed, yet I'm so
>overwhelmed with joy, that the joy is causing the depression.  Do you all
>know that last night I nearly killed myself.  Not because I was depressed
>and wanted to end it all though.  I wanted to do it, because I cannot stand
>the fact of being here on earth away from standing in the presence face to
>face with almighty God.  That is gonna be the most wonderful day of my life.
>I can't wait!  God is so beautiful.
>
>You all take care.
>
>And again:  Paulette?  You call me tonight, or call Anne if you need either
>of us.
>
>
>Chris.

John

   I haven't lost my mind; it's backed up on tape somewhere !