Trish,

        Thanks for the kind thoughts. It isn't as bad as it sounded
although I do miss Paul and Maxx, I have other things in my life. It's the
creative synergy
Paul and I had going which I miss. I used to write stuff like "Night Phobic
and Blood Thirsty- the Adventures of Clem, the Red Neck Vampire". Clem
developed a phobia for travelling at night and applies for SSDI, until he
discovers the Social Security is only open during daytime hours. Sick,
funny stuff like that.
Writing Clem I felt a complete release as well as a sense of fulfillment I
don't find in the staid professional writing I do. Guess I'll have to get
started aggain. Sitting at a keyboard writing stud like Clem was sublime to
me. I had no worries or cares.

Bobby


>Hi Bobby,
>
>    I am sorry, I got the letters/words out of order for PTSD - its Post
>Traumatic Stress Disorder. I had just come in from burying my cat - guess
>I should have had a glass wine and bath and left e-mail for later. Here
>are a couple of links for it   http://www.trauma-pages.com/index.phtml
>and
>http://members.tripod.co.uk/victim/ptsd/  .
>
>   As far as depression goes - do remember that it can also be caused by
>level of seratonin flucuating in your brain and may require medication to
>level it back out. The best ways to deal with depression are of of course
>all the things the person doesn't feel like doing - exercising, eating,
>getting out, and seeing friends. When the blues hit - its even more
>important to take of yourself - eat right, get enough sleep, exercise etc.
>Try to focus on positive things - rather than find what you can't do -
>find what can. Volunteer to help folks who need help - many times seeing
>our lives aren't so bad helps ( I whined about having no shoes - till I
>met a man with no feet), talk to your friends - vent - fury, anger and
>sorrow fester if they are not released. On a non-medicine level - St
>John's Wort - an herb is a mood enhancer - becareful if you are a sunbunny
>- it makes the skin photosenistive. Enough from Mama Trisha!!
>
>                                            Brightest Blessings
>                                                 Trisha
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