one too many pieces of wedding cake, i guess.

-----Original Message-----
From: Bobby Greer [mailto:[log in to unmask]]
Sent: Tuesday, November 09, 1999 9:41 AM
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Subject: Re: Depression and disability


Anee,

        I think most people have some trouble accepting hearing themselves
on audio tape or looking in the mirror, or seeing themselves on video. I do
not feel it relates to having a disability necessarily. I have always hated
hearing a recording of my voice. A while back, a good friend in rehab.
remarked that I sounded a lot like Alfred Hitchcock. Now, I don't hear it
that way, but he does.
My phobias of seeing myself now relates more to my weight that to CP. We
just got some pictures back from my son's wedding in Raleigh, NC. My
daughter-in-law kept raving how good the photo of my son and I was.
Personally, I thought I looked liked Shamu in a tuxedo!!

Bobby


>Hi all-
>
>As far as mirrors go and such...here is my experience...
>
>When I look at a mirror I don;t see that anything is abnormal about me.
But
>if I look at a still photo I can see that I lean over -- and I get self
>conciouse about that. And like many of you I hate looking at a video tape
of
>myself...I once did an announcement for my highschool TV broadcast of there
>announcements...1) you could hardly understand what I was saying (and when
I
>here my self talk I sound perfectly normal).
>2) I kept  moving jerking all over the place (more than I was aware of that
I
>did/do) and my arms would hit things and of course that makes me very self
>coniouse but I try not to think about it...and I try to avoid video tapes
so
>I won;t be reminded of it :)
>
>I guess it that we all have some vanity deep down inside no matter how hard
>we try not to.
>
>Yours,
>
>Anee Stanford
>Webmaster of CPIC
>http://www.geocities.com/aneecp/CPIC.html