I'm really sorry you have such a hard time with your CP.  I see my CP as
a blessing.  I've already shared all of that with you, so I won't go into
details.  I will say look on the positive, you graduated college and you
have 2 jobs.

Cindy C.

P.S.  HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!

On Tue, 4 Jul 2000 11:48:59 -0500 Perk <[log in to unmask]> writes:
> Hi Fellow listmates:
>
> I'm going to combine this all in to one E-Mail.
>
> First , I would like to introduce myself.  I was born on July 5,
> 1971.  It
> was a complicated birth. . .  I couldn't cry , breathe or suck.  The
> doctors
> thought I would be a vegetable the rest of my life.  As a result of
> all of
> this , I was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy at the age of three a
> half .  I
> am very physically disabled because of all of this.  I can't walk ,
> talk ,
> or feed myself in the 'normal way."  When I was four years old , I
> was the
> Cerebral Palsy Poster child.  I went to Day Care for that had
> disabilities
> and Early Childhood.  Then I went through all of school.  When I was
> in
> fourth grade , I was put in to a special education class in school.
> I used
> to to drool a lot and I had a surgery to stop that.   When I was a
> freshman
> in high school , I had what looked like seizures but actually it was
> suicidal attempts. I won the award for the outstanding handicapped
> citizen
> for the state of Wisconsin.  I went to college and double majored in
> Data
> Entry and Accounting.   I update telephone directories for a living.
>  I do
> about twenty to thirty a year.  I do it right from my home.   I also
> make
> and sell my own greeting cards.  As I mentioned before , I have had
> a lot of
> problems with drepression and suicide.  From 1992 to 1998 I was in
> counseling and from 1994-96, I was hospitalized seven times because
> of this.
> The reason of all of this is because I couldn't cope with having a
> disability.  My family consists of a father , a mother and three
> brothers.
> I also have seven nieces and nephews .  I collect angels.  I'm
> really
> involved on the Internet.  I'm on several of   ListServs, ICQ, AOL
> Instant
> Messenger , and mIRC.  My ICQ UIN # is 16632777.  My screen name for
> AOL
> Instant Messenger is KJPink.  The servers that I'm usually on on
> mIRC is
> BrightNet or ChatWorks.  I have a Home WebPage .  It is at
> http://homepages.msn.com/WindowsWay/kjpink/.
>
> It seems to me like my depression is coming back.  Under my
> depression is a
> lot of rage and hurt.  I don't want to be like this (a person living
> with
> Cerebral Palsy) all of my life.  This past weekend all of the family
> were
> home and they did some activities that I couldn't do and I felt left
> out.
> Is it normal to feel this way?
>
> School was hard for me.  I was put in to a class that I didn't
> belong.  Also
> , I was teased a lot.
> AOL Instant Messenger ScreenName KJPink
> ICQ UIN # 16632777
> http://homepages.msn.com/WindowsWay/kjpink/
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