now who is being a mind/soul reader?

> Whoever coined the phrase, "growing old gracefully" obviously didn't have
> cerebral palsy.  If I hadn't lived the first 30 years of so as if I didn't
> have cp, perhaps these last few years would not be quite so traumatic.
> I'm
> stubborn and independent.  Always have been, always will be!  (At least
> that's what I keep telling myself.)  However, there is a dark doubt which
> creeps in and haunts me.  "What's it going to be like in five, ten, twenty
> years?"  The images which come to mind scare the bejesus out of me, so I
> push
> them away by physically PUSHING myself past the limit.  I'm trying to
> prove
> something to myself, and I ALWAYS end up suffering (physically).
> ng psychic dictation from my soul and putting in print for everyone to
> read. :D
>
> Ah yes, "sucking it up."  But you see here is the problem, with the
> passing
> of each year, I find I need a much bigger straw.  I too "suck up the pain"
> ignore my body's wailing pleas to stop, ... Stop, ....STOP! :D   - Denise.