Hi All,

As an update on my health condition since adding small amounts of raw fish to
my diet, randomly consumed....  Besides improved skin quality, I continually
seem to be recovering from a condition I had lost perspective on.  My mind or
brain continually seems healthier, with much less fear, conspiracy thoughts
towards everyone, paranoia, etc.

For example, last weekend a 16 inch snowfall was predicted, prompting my
family, and maybe many others to go out and buy food for the weekend.  The
weekend left a total of a couple inches of snow.  In the past, I would have
thought that the supermarket industry was paying off the weather-men to
predict huge storms to cause increased purchases of food.  People then stay
inside all weekend, and consume the food.  Then, the storm doesn't happen, and
people are happy.

That's paranoid.

This time I was aware that while I would have thought something like this in
the past, now I just thought, huh, i had a feeling we wouldn't get a lot of
snow...

As well as experiencing increasing connection and trust of my instincts, and
less paranoid thoughts, more unconditional love and acceptance towards others,
and a more optimistic or positive view towards all others, including doctors
who I perceive as being ignorant of truth, my internal dialogue has almost
entirely disappeared, and my focus continues to increase remarkably.

To elaborate, the continual, uninterrupted periods of silence or complete
presence continue to increase daily, and my internal dialogue occurs only a
fraction of the day when I am engaged in intentional complex 'thought' which
seems to require the use of language.  I do not want to deny myself that
activity, and should it prove to be removed on it's own, then I will accept
that... though at the moment it seems to resemble creative conceptualization,
except that instead of concepts or visualization, it's words.  Whether that
'thought' activity is more important than full presence with my 5 senses is
not for me to judge, but rather for me to discover.   Right now it seems to be
facilitating different areas of my life relating to society as opposed to
nature.

As far as feelings and emotions...

People that don't know truths like 'raw foods' are no longer viewed with anger
and frustration, but more like a child who doesn't know how to tie a shoe.  I
am much more accepting of my family who continues to eat cooked foods, and
this is making my stay with them much more enjoyable.   And though I am aware
of the physical and mental harms of cooked foods, I am much more accepting of
the idea that humans originally cooked foods out of necessity and not just
addiction.  In fact, I imagine, as others may have, that humans originally and
intuitively associated their own digestive fire with FIRE itself and correctly
reasoned fire could make undigestible foods more digestible.  Thus allowing
the survival of the human race.  A pancreatic sacrifice may be the reason we
are all alive today.  If that is the case, I am grateful for their
intelligence and open-mindedness...!

Remember LIFE is varying degrees of suffering, this is never to be resisted,
or life will become SUFFERING and not peace.

I also continue to feel more grounded and rooted.

I did not know I had become so spacey, although I knew I was getting
forgetful, and I wonder how many people believe they are attaining higher
spiritual states which in reality might be the experienced result of mental
malnourishment.

Paranoia is a sign the brain is unhealthy, and increase in trust or happiness
or lack of paranoia is a sign the brain is healthy, so all I can say is that
my brain is getting healthier.  Fears of raw meat may stem from, form, and
reinforce paranoia.

Also, as always,  I continue to recommend the removal of one's belief system,
and
judgments and idealogies, so that one can just LIVE, as faulty beliefs,
judgments, and ideals, can be life threatening and sheltering from reality.

As a side note, I would also like to know whether or not intelligence was
measured in those animals whose lifespans had been extended through caloric
restriction.  Personally, I would rather thrive and experience my true nature
and live a shorter more pleasurable life, than extend my lifespan by
restricting my diet (which no animal would do) and not experience my
potential.  To equate quality of life with maximal duration alone seems to
lack
perspective.

Just to note:  I had been taking flax seeds and flax oil for a couple months
regularly, along with my normal consumption of nuts and seeds, and avocados,
and these did not produce the rapid healing and mental effects that these
small amounts of raw fish have.

By the way...

Yesterday was the most amazing day of my life.  I sat in the woods next to a
stream, and my mind was silent, and everything just WAS, and I WAS, and I had
never before been so present, so ME, and so ALIVE, and so INNOCENT.  My visual
experience, the form and swirling nature of the water, the information
supplied me by my senses, the sounds, were more rich and textured than ever
before.  As I became more and more present, and awake, and alive, and internal
silence reigned, energy began to wash over my whole body, tingling, through my
skull, and form, and the world seemed to get very bright, and laughter kept
bubbling up from nowhere, and I cannot express in words the happiness, and
freedom, and peace, and groundedness, and physicality that I felt as I just
laughed and laughed as my smile reflected that light...

All of this a few hours after sharing a piece of raw organic meat between
myself and Titania, the white fuzzy carnivorous loving creature that shares
this household.

I experienced no digestive difficulties, and had a normal and fulfilling bowel
movement this morning.  I feel better today then ever before...

I should note Titania and I also enjoyed sharing some raw seeded grapes.  She
also seems to have a fondness for raw unhulled sunflower seeds;)

By the way my sleep has improved dramatically, in quality and deepness, and
dream  creativity, and I wake up refreshed in the morning between 5 and 6 AM.

 I have found the following site for raw frozen and dried
pet food and share it with the love I feel towards my furry friends, so that
they may be FED.  I wish them good health.

http://www.animalfood.com/AFSpets.htm

aaron