Hello Andrew,
I totally agree with what Phil mentioned about music. I am very
concerned about your physical symptoms. At this point you may need to
prayerfully consier checking into a hospital. I am pretty sure that
if you call 911 and mention chest pains and shortness of breath
they'll come and get you. I'm not a doctor, but constant anxiety is
really bad for you.
Talking with social workers at the hospital might help you find more
info about services in Canada.
The reason I mentioned Phil's email at the beginning of this book is
that your situation has to be faced on multiple fronts.
First: get your physical/ mental health evaluated,and get somewhere
you feel safe.
Second: you need to fight the spiritual issues with your spiritual weaponry.
Praise stills the enemy, and the avenger. Do you have an audio Bible?
It wouldn't hurt to play it in the background throughout your day,
and especially while you are sleeping.
I would alternate playing scripture outloud with worship music.
Third: Most important you need to declare God's place as Lord of your
situation. Your head knows He's Lord but your thoughts and feelings
need some help getting into line with what you know to be true.
I've read articles where scientists say that you believe the words
that come out of your own mouth more than anyone else. So use that and
sing with the music, and when God highlights a passage of scripture,
stop the recording, and repeat. If you need to re say it with either
"I" or Andrew in the passage.
For Example: John 3:16 in part; "For God so loved" Andrew that he
sent His only begotten son, that Andrew believing in Him should not
perish, but have everlasting life"
John 14:1 I will not let my heart be troubled, neither will I let it
be afraid...
I hope this helps, and I'm sorry for writing so long.
Do you have a way to look for hotlines in Canada?
Donna
On 7/24/15, andrew edgcumbe <[log in to unmask]> wrote:
> i really don't feel right talking to parents i just don't want people
> siding my parents more than me and things. my dad had no right tothreaten
> me way he did back in april. and what he was doing they were doing was
> trying to control me. i was shaking for the whole morning and i was living
> in fear and things. i just want to move out from under my controlling
> abusive parents i want out of there and to move in to an appartment of my
> own that is what i want to do.
>
> On Fri, Jul 24, 2015 at 10:10 AM, john schwery <[log in to unmask]>
> wrote:
>
>> Andrew, sometimes, the Lord asks us to move out of our comfort zone.
>> You
>> don't have to do it alone and I hope you can get some help with this.
>>
>>
>>
>> earlier, andrew edgcumbe, wrote:
>>
>> hi john i just don't feel comfortable even talking to them how iÂ
>> about
>> how i feel. i just feel like i can't talk to them. i have felt
>> anxiety.
>> I have times off and on that even though i have not actually thrown
>> anything up that i have felt like i was going to be sick to my stomach
>> that happens sometimes at home. I been feeling chest paines and things
>> few things like that not sure how to tell if i have anxiety or not i feel
>> it is because of stress and what is happening at home.
>>
>> On Fri, Jul 24, 2015 at 8:45 AM, john schwery <[log in to unmask] >
>> wrote:
>> Andrew, perhaps, it is time to let your parents know how you feel.Â
>> Maybe, a third party can help.
>>
>>
>>
>> earlier, andrew edgcumbe, wrote:
>>
>> hi i personally feel it isn't possible i am treated like a kid at
>> home
>> and kept at home and can't even make friends. I feel that
>> they it is hard to have friends way my parents are. i just don't like
>> being
>> treated like somebody who has a disability just because i am blind. i
>> shouldn't have people limiting what i can do just because i am blind.
>> I
>> just feel like parents wouldn't listen to me anyway i want to do
>> what i want to do not what the parents want me to do things like that i
>> am
>> 28 years old by the way. i just feel angry at them i don't tell them
>> about
>> that but i feel angry towards my parents because they hold me back from
>> having a life and things like that. i don't show anger towards them
>> but
>> i keep it all from them. my parents have damaged my selfesteene and i
>> feel like they don't make me feel modivated to do anything. my
>> mom
>> constantly poors my milk for me and i am cooked for things like
>> that.Â
>>  and i don't even know how to the basics of banking taking money
>> out and putting it in. sometimes i almost feel like not getting up
>> sometimes in the morning because i almost don't feel it is worth it ÂÂ
>> almost not worth getting out of bed. i am just really struggling and
>> things.
>>
>> On Thu, Jul 23, 2015 at 7:20 AM, Rhonda Partain <[log in to unmask]>
>> wrote: Andrew, you need to talk to someone. Any problem has two sides,
>> sometimes it helps to have a third party hear both sides. Someone who
>> isn̢۪t directly in involved can see things you or your parents might
>> miss
>> because of your emotional involvement. It will take both you and your
>> parents  working together if your problems are to be solved.  From:
>> The Electronic Church [ mailto:[log in to unmask]
>> <[log in to unmask]>] On Behalf Of john schwery Sent:
>> Thursday, July 23, 2015 6:18 AM To: [log in to unmask]
>> Subject:
>> Re: Family Situation
>>
>> Â Andrew, if possible, I think your parents should be included or you
>> could alienate them even worse. As a last resort, you may have to go
>> against your parents, but only as a last resort. If people in your
>> church care about you, they would be willing to help.
>>
>>
>> earlier, andrew edgcumbe, wrote:
>> personally i don't feel right bringing anybody that knows my parents
>> really well into it. i feel the best thing for me is to move out.i just
>> personally feel nobody should talk to my parents i really want a
>> life a normal life and want to be able to have ffriends and
>> things. i just don't feel comfortable talkinng to my church.
>>
>> On Wed, Jul 22, 2015 at 10:01 PM, Vicki <[log in to unmask]> wrote:
>> PPerhaps
>> you should ask the pastor if he would be willing to do that sort of
>> thing.
>> vicki *** Sent from my iPhone *** On Jul 22, 2015, at 7:04 PM, andrew
>> edgcumbe < [log in to unmask]> wrote:
>>
>> hiÂài talked to the church but the pastor never talked
>> about
>> doing anything further and all he ddid was pray for me. I feel
>> like
>> my dad won't admit to his wrongs and things so i feel like it isn't
>> possible i feel more and more in deep down sort of way moving out just
>> might be the thing. On Wed, Jul 22, 2015 at 7:30 PM, Phil Scovell <
>> [log in to unmask] > wrote: Andrew, John recommended what I was
>> thinking, that is, a friend, someone from the church, if you are
>> attending
>> a church right now, a pastor or someone that is related and understands
>> your situation and could represent you with your dad. I don’t
>> remembemembember if this is even remotely possible or not. Phil.
>>
>>
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