Hi Sharon H.

I'm praying for you. I do not doubt your Salvation at all.

I know you are Saved, and I feel you are just going through some hard 
times. I can relate to what you are feeling.


Thanks much.

Many Blessings,

Pat Ferguson
"I can Do all Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me" Philippians 4:13.

At 06:04 PM 8/29/2014, you wrote:
>as I have mentioned recently, I'm being pulled out of the slimy 
>pit.  It seems that the struggle isn't quite over with yet, though. 
>I know that some of you believe that once you have received Christ, 
>you can never lose your salvation, or, if you turn away as far as to 
>deny Him, you cannot come back because He will not die for us 
>again.  But I don't really agree.  However, I'm learning that, just 
>maybe, the Lord has kept me all the time I thought I wanted nothing 
>to do with Him anymore, that there is a difference between emotional 
>"Kicking God Out," telling people, to "Get off my back!" and 
>agreeing to have someone put me on a prayer chain, as I have done 
>with my counselor, who is a Christian and whose mother was delivered 
>from a "hopeless" addiction to Valium.  My counselor put her on a 
>prayer chain, and maybe a few days later, not knowing what happened, 
>her mother called to say, "You know, I just don't feel the need for 
>it anymore."  Anyway, I'm still having a hard time just simply 
>leaving things in god's hands and not worrying, despite the fact He 
>gave me more than one scripture about that!  .  If it were a 
>physical thing that needed fixing, I would have walked over to Him 
>and put it in His arms long ago.  Now that I think of it, I might 
>have worried that I would take it back under pressure, but I think a 
>tangible thing would be easier to deal with.  So I would still 
>appreciate your prayers.  Also, please pray that I will find a 
>prayer partner in my area who understands how to talk with the Lord 
>as The chief Counselor.
>Though the one I have now is a licensed counselor who is more open 
>to this, she is paid by Medicaid.  I would prefer to work with 
>someone who has no restrictions of what we can or can't do.  It 
>would be nice to have a woman so we could become friends and goof 
>around too.  If I can get that, I might stop with this restrictive system.
>
>Another thing is that I haven't been going to church.  For most of 
>my life, I've been at least somewhat uncomfortable with it.  Sure, 
>sometimes I would hear an encouraging sermon, but because of what 
>I've been through, I have this attitude that it reminds me that 
>there is a Hell because they talk about the Lord.  I would very 
>often give up the fight to sleep, and would be angry when my mom 
>tried to make me wake up and listen.  Another attitude is, "If the 
>people know what's inside of me, they might think I was in serious 
>danger and might tell me that I would have to make a decision for 
>Christ," as some have done."  I know that I need to remember that 
>they are children, brothers and sisters like myself, and not the 
>Father, who is the highest authority, but right now that's not so 
>easy.  However, I would sort of like to find and go to a small 
>informal group where the Holy spirit is allowed to move without 
>being interrupted by scheduled activity.  So please pray for that too.
>I see a possibility, but I've put it off.  If I remember to look 
>into this, I'll talk with my caregiver this evening and we might 
>call the lady she talked with.  You can hold me accountable to that, 
>if you want. :)
>
>I hope you all don't mind this long message, but thank you for 
>asking this question, Phil.
>
>Your sister in Christ,
>
>Sharon