loving and most precious family:
I have a very puzzling, and embarrassing yet extremely difficult situation
that I am in now. Not only could i use some prayer on this, but I also
could use some help... um, Rebertta, you especially may could help me on
this, so I'd like all yall that feel you'd like to write on this topic,
please do, but Reberta, especially, could you write me off list about this
matter, at:
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Here's the deal:
i'd say now, probably, for about the past 4 days or so, I have been having
major problems... especially at nighttime where, um... l'l'l'lets just
keep this nongraffic... I haven't exactly, uh... hmm... how should I
say... ben'n'n'n ahm... able too'oo'oo um... OK, I'll just come out with
it... ho God Christ this is embarrassing... I haven't been able to control
my blatter all that well... I've basicly been finding that at night,
usually! I could get to the restroom in time, but a few times I only have
made it literally and actually speaking by about a fourth of a second...
That? isn't good... I mean, not even a second later, let's face it: I
would a been soaked...
Anyway, remaining as nongraffic as I can... I called my doctor and toldem
what was going on... He told me to keep an extremely close eye on it over
the corse of say the next week, and if by then it still is occuring, then
call back and he'd set me up an appointment... Well, i asked him in the
ming time what to do just in case I couldn't seem to hold myself... he then
suggested, well, I know this is gonna sound really odd, possibly very
stupid, Chris, but have you got means of transpertation? I said, well yeah?
My grandmother... he's like, no no Chris, I mean do you have it in such a
way where you'd be alone... I said, well, yeah, I could get an executive
car, and granted it's a bit expensive, i guess I could if I had to... He
then said, tell ya what: next time you get a chance, run by the store and
pick ya up a box of disposable diapers. just wear them at night... You
don't have to worry bout during the day as it seems to only really be an
issue at night. I then said, ok, but how can I do that, I mean, firstly,
they won't fit! he's like, well, I have a trick to that, and then discussed
that with me as I won't go into it... It's more graffical than needed...
Anyway, here's the issue... I followed his recommendation and have been
doing it, but... some of you all know about... well... um... my... let's
just sum it up in one word: situation... I'm not gonna go into details.
We have many members on this list who are new, and I'm not sure how they'd
react to it, and actually, even those of you who do know, there's no need to
relive it... Anyway, point is: obviusly my parents know about it, well, my
dad kind of knows... my mom pretty well knows though, not so much the
severity as much as just that the issue is there... um, by situation, i'm
not refering to this one... OK i'll go no further than one more hint... My
OCD...
This presents me with a major problem... if they see what I've bought...
then,... um... they're gonna be mooing rather than talking if you'll let me
put it so mildly... I could put it much more profanely to suit what really
would happen but then I'd probably be booted from the list, so i'll keep my
trap shut on that regard... Never the less, once they see these things,
which is bound to happen, adventrually, i'm like, um... well, let's just
say I will see yall in heaven...
I am not! about to talk to them about this issue, neither of 'em!
Especially after they never give me support in else places manors, or
fassions...
I've already wettened about probably 4 or 5 outta 40 of 'em, so i managed
with my maid being here the other day to dispose of those, and she really
didn't say anything to me, luckally, however, I'm really freeked because I
have no mass of an idea how I'm gonna deal with this at hand when, and if,
I'm approached, which I'm positive I will be adventurally... i'm not so
much asking for prayer of the situation as much as I'm asking both for
advice as well as prayer on how in the blessid name of... i won't complete
that... I'm supposed to handle this when approached...
I must say, i'm not the type for getting really teery eyed over fear, but I
gotta hand it to yall: this in itself is nearly at the point of that...
Not quite, but almost... please, yall, help!
Chris.
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have a wonderful day!
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