Dear Phil, and Everyone,

Thanks so much. I really like what you said.

I believe  that God will sustain us, and I do believe that He is 
Lord, and nothing will come between those of us who love and serve  Him.

Vernon is going to the Oncologist this morning. I believe I am 
suppose to stay here. I will attempt to solve this problem with 
Network solutions while he is gone, but I appreciate your prayers in 
this matter. I can deal with Qwest, and I will.

Network Solutions is another issue, and not easy to solve, because we 
don't have anywhere else to host our web sites, and I don't know who 
to talk to about this so I do this in the right order. Vernon is the 
owner, and   I need his permission to make any changes. Of course, he 
will grant them, but he can't do that if he's not here. Thank God for 
cell phones. I actually have to find somewhere to host the two web 
sites before I take us  away from Network Solutions. I can leave them 
as the registers, but as far as hosting them, I think it's time to 
leave, even though we did this on January 7th, and their web site is 
not as accessible as it should be. Part of the problem, is how they 
have outsourced their technical support. They told me they weren't 
taking it over-seas, and they have done just that. I'm furious about 
that. Those foreign people don't have a clue. Woops, Forgive me, God. 
I shouldn't have probably said that, but it's the truth.

If anyone here has any knowledge as to what I should do, and how I 
should go about it, please write me off list. Also, anyone wishing to 
hear the letter I wrote them last Thursday, please write me off list.

I'm praying for Wisdom for how to handle this all without tears. I've 
been so emotional lately, and I hate that. Some of it is Empy for 
others when something goes wrong, and that reminds me, I have a 
prayer request, and that will be in another message.

We had a great Bible study and prayer time on the conference line 
Tuesday night.

I don't want to have to go back on the Zoloft. I'm not really 
depressed, but I get so  emotional about things. I don't cry for 
hours, or even days, <grin> but I cry a little for a few minutes, and 
then I'm okay. My eyes are dry right now, but they weren't a few 
minutes ago. lol. I laugh more now, than I did when I was on the 
Zoloft. I love to laugh. lol.

Last night, I was talking to a friend on the phone, and her and I are 
very close. We laughed so hard, that well, let's just say, I had a 
little problem. <grin> lol. Now, I'm laughing. lol. Her and I had to 
end our conversation, because I had something I had to take care of. 
lol. That hasn't happened, since I was on Prevecid, in 2005. lol. I 
can't let that happen again, but it happened so suddenly. lol.

I have another thing, I would like you all to pray about, please.

I found a Church, I think, that I would love to attend. I believe God 
wants me in His word, big time, and I'm not doing that like I should. 
We have several Churches in this small town. One of them is the CMA. 
(Christian Missionary Alliance.) I think they are a pretty sound 
Church, and that is where all the Spirit-Filled Christians are going 
here in this town. Please let me know what you all think. I've been 
praying about this.

My Chiropractor prayed for me on Tuesday. Now, my concern is, how do 
I tell my loving Vernon, who is not saved. I need to let him know 
that I'm going to be going to Church, and that we would love to have 
him go with me. I don't want to make him feel left out, so how do I 
go about doing this?

Okay, I'm done rambling, and must go and fix breakfast, for my loving Vernon.

I'll be back! <grin> lol.

Thanks much for praying.

Loving you all bunches,
Pat Ferguson

At 11:31 PM 2/4/2009, you wrote:
>----- Original Message -----
>From: "Pat Ferguson
>
>
> > Phil,
> > Can you explain this to me, please? <smile>
>
>
>Pat,
>
>It is sort of one of those things that cannot be explained but it basically
>means, what we believe is what is true in our minds.  I know that sounds new
>age and not Biblical but awhile back, the Lord told me about what believing,
>or belief, is.  For years, I have been confused about how to believe God.
>It seemed it was all my responsibility and I had to do all the heavy lifting
>before anything I asked God for would come to pass.  I knew that couldn't be
>right because He has already done all the heavy lifting on the cross and
>especially as a result of His bodily resurrection.  So how do we believe?
>Where we stand is what we believe.  I get this idea from the Ephesians
>chapter 6 passage about putting on the whole armor of God.  The shield of
>faith is not an offensive weapon but a defensive weapon.  You don't throw a
>shield at the Enemy.  In this case, you stand fixed in place, not attacking,
>but standing your ground and when the fiery darts come, your shield of faith
>alone quenches them; kills them dead in their tracks.  So in my opinion, and
>I ain't the sharpest knife in the drawer, believing God is where we stand,
>that is, what we believe.  If we believe we are cursed, ok, that's fine.
>You prayed about it and sent them packing.  Good for you because that's the
>right thing to do.  Then, however, we stand fixed and hold our ground.  We
>don't need to fight, Ephesians 6 is a metaphor, and therefore not real in
>the since of literally fighting.  Besides, the Enemy was clearly defeated
>and exposed openly to the world by the Lord at the resurrection.  Therefore,
>we embrace the complete meaning of the cross but live in the Lord's bodily
>resurrection.  That's where we stand.  So the saying, "The curse that works
>is the one we believe," to me means the truth is God aware and the Enemy is
>a lie.  So the question becomes where are we standing?  On God's Word or the
>lie of the Enemy.  I hear faith in your voice even as you write to us about
>what is going on.  That's where you keep standing and don't throw your
>shield; just hold it up to deflect the lies thrown by the Enemy.  The fiery
>darts, if you study it from the Greek, carries the meaning of emotions and
>feeling.  They aren't literally fiery darts, of course, but the Greek
>meaning of the words implies lies thrown at what we think because what we
>think is where we are defeated or victorious.  Before my spinal surgery, I
>kept feeling, thinking in my mind, but feeling it emotionally as well, that
>I was disappointing my family.  My physical pain and circumstances were so
>loud, I couldn't hear the Lord about why I felt this way.  One night, I
>heard Him say, "It is a lie."  I was being demonically attacked, in a manner
>of speaking, and the fiery dart was a lie that said, "If you die, you will
>be disappointing your family," that is, I would be making them suffer over
>my death and thus failing my family.  I know it sounds stupid now but when
>you are in the thick of things and the Enemy is throwing fiery darts into
>your mind and thoughts and the circumstances are off the scale, standing
>firm is all that is required.  Ask others to agree in prayer, which you have
>done, pray against the attack, which you have done.  Now stand.  No working,
>no charging into battle trying to defeat the Enemy, who is already defeated,
>but hold and stand your ground.  Be God's Word on earth in your present
>circumstances.  The Enemy cannot defeat you if you just stand and let what
>you know represent who you are in Christ.  Sorry.  I got to preaching there.
>The curse is broken so stand in what you know as one of His children.
>
>Phil.