As I said before though to turn this around a little.  I then must be the 
weird one as I have never thought such things.  If the bible says we are to 
trust God and lean not to our own understanding, and if we do this, and if 
we trust him as do children then we won't have such thoughts?  Perhaps all 
this is just too difficult for me to understand.  All I can say is If I 
weren't going to heaven God certainly has done more than he should do for 
me.  Even if he did nothing more than to give me life, that alone would be 
enough to trust he knows best.  I do have trouble figuring why he does 
things which make no sense to me, but, then, I am not the brightest bulb in 
the lamp, and probably wouldn't understand his master plan for me and my 
loved ones if he took time to sit down and to explain it to me.  I suppose I 
was just saying I couldn't understand how one can have such negative 
thoughts when scripture clearly contradicts them.  I suppose I never will. 
I am just glad I don't have them.  They must be horrible to think.  Phil 
knows better than do I but it seems if you just tell those with whom you 
pray to believe God will take care of them, and no matter what happens if 
they wait long enough the difficult times will reveal eventually an easier 
path.  It happened with Job after all.  God's time is not our own.  so one 
may have to wait quite a time to be shown happier times but they will come, 
because God never gives us any more than we can carry, and if we feel over 
whelmed, all we have to do is to turn the entire problem to God and not to 
worry over it any more and he will do what worrying that may be necessary. 
They will be assured with these reminders.  I know I have been.  In the past 
I have shown poor confidents but time has proven
God's faithfulness though I have not been as sure of him as I would have 
liked to be.  Sharon, when you wonder whether you are going to heaven just 
know God has prepared a place for you.  If it were not so, he would have 
told you otherwise.
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Sharon Hooley" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Sunday, April 20, 2008 8:03 PM
Subject: Re: I Hate God


> Phil and All,
>
> I can relate to what you are talking about.  I went through some emotional 
> trauma that took me downhill to the point that I felt I wanted nothing to 
> do with God, and didn't want to trust Him for deliverance from sinful 
> quick fixes, and thus there was no hope for me.  I'm still not over it 
> completely, but it seems The Lord revealed to me that the only reason I 
> react this way is because I'm hurting, and not because I am rebelling 
> against Him.  Please pray with me that Jesus will heal me of this 
> negativity completely, along with any fears I have about not making it to 
> Heaven!
>
> Thanks,
>
> Sharon
>