I'm trying to make a major decision. In a small way, I believe God's leading
me to leave my aunt and go live with my Dad, sister, and nephew. I'm
disenchanted with my aunt and the man who lives with us. Lately, I can't
sleep at night, I'm so restless, I'm feeling emotionally dead inside. I'm
saved. I know this is just a valley and a test of my faith, or it's some
kind of spirit or an attack of the devil. Lately, I've gotten to where I
want to be with my sister more, and usually, I'm making all kinds of excuses
to get out of going home with her. I'm grateful that I'm actually wanting to
be with them now. I seriously believe God's leading me to go and live with
them, but I need prayer action on this. A few people have told me that I'd
get along better if I were with them. At least the SSI money I get every
month would be accessible to me, instead of being hidden away in some secret
account I know nothing about. Of course, my aunt feels bad that Jenny, my
sister didn't stay with us the other night because my aunt was really
hateful with her the other day. I don't blame her, I wouldn't stay either. I
strongly believe God's leading me to leave my aunt and go to Dad, but I need
to know for sure, before I jump into the black water. I'm so confused,
depressed, sleep deprived, stressed, sick and tired, frustrated, ashamed,
panicked, scared to death, aggravated, angry, headed for a psychotic
breakdown, not to mention a nervous breakdown, restless, disenchanted,
discontented, dissatisfied, and emotionally turned inside out. It's a dark
and foreboding valley for me. I'm praying, but I need prayer support. I've
got a few friends praying, but I need a bigger group of prayer warriors
praying for me. Please pray that God will reveal to me what He'd have me do.
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