Actually, Phil,  I'm getting closer to finding the way up off the 
not-merry-go-round; experiencing, as much as we can now, just how long and 
wide and high and deep is The Love of Christ!  I've been reading the book by 
Wayne Jacobson, He Loves Me.  If you recall, Doris sent us the ftp link for 
it.  I highly recommend it!  the idea is that, if we see this truth, we'll 
naturally want to stick with Him and do what He asks of us, and not to worry 
as to whether or not we will!  I get some encouragement from the passage in 
Revelations that says, "I know your works, that you don't tolerate evil, and 
persevere under trial.  But I have this against you,; you've left your First 
Love." (My paraphrase.  Oh how much easier it is to live for Him if we just 
experience this truth that sets us completely free from fear, as perfect 
love casts out fear!  Hallelujah!

Sharon