Pat,

No need to apologize, we're fam right? Hey don't worry about all that 
cancer stuff and future stuff that may or may not come. None of us are 
guaranteed the next breath, literally, and instead of worry we might focus 
on grace and thankfulness of each one. Not that you aren't grateful, I know 
you are, but don't worry. And while I say that, I know it isn't just that 
easy. If you need to adjust meds, be thankful you recognize that, take 
comfort in knowing you are in tune with yourself and have clarity to know 
what is wrong, and in that itself will tell you that all you are going 
through is temporary. It will get better. Spring is around the corner too. 
I miss the birds chirping in the open window in the morning. They get so 
loud across the field they'll wake you up at 4:30AM. I really like the 
sound of birds and winter offers very little and sometimes none of that. 
Next or equal to that is the crickets and   swamp frogs and tree frogs. 
Last year I nearly  hung a microphone out my window and made a CD of all 
the night time sounds so I could listen to them in winter. Crazy right? 
hahahaahha, well I sure wish I did now. I use a digital recorder to make 
song notes, bits and pieces of songs I'm working on and I was cleaning it 
off some last week and ran across a song I was working on last summer and 
heard all the birds in the background, I just sat and listened to the birds 
and ignored my song lol.

Brad