Chris!
U don't know if people were praying for u or not. People on this list don't
have to respond and say "I'm praying for u." maybe they just take a second
and pray. And maybe they don't. To be totally nonest I didn't pray when I
read your post. in fact i didn't read your post in it's entirety as it was
long. I'm not staying up for long and i'm trying to make the most of my time
up andd active. And I just forgot to pray. I have a lot on my mind a lot of
other people do too. Also while u begged us to write u, I don't see u
writing often with encouragement or prayers. Because I know u I know u r
very encouraging and caring and even though u don'twrite on list I know that
u do think about others. I am just sayingthat if u ask for responses u
should b able to give them as well. Oh wierd my speeker just fell off my
sheklf! Ok, my heart is still pounding. That was wierd anyways don't take
people's lack of respnse so personally.
Shelly

----- Original Message -----
From: "Chris Gilland" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Sunday, December 14, 2003 4:09 AM
Subject: Slightly ticked off


> I really do feel very much in the background here...  i rejoin this list
> because I really felt you all were concerned and were wondering how I was
> doing...  Well, why is it that when I post something very general, like,
o,
> I dunno, how yall dooen today, or maybe what's the weather like, or maybe,
> what's your dog eatin right now?  You all answer me right away, however...
> when I post something very serious that I really need prayer about such as
I
> did yesterday, you all just apparently, look it over like it means
> nothing...  I will not take this out of context..  i mean, you all could!
> sit here and tell me that you all were busy, and had things like a job etc
> that you have to deal with...  OK, this may be true, but you all hold the
> phone right there for a second and listen to me...  Now, i'm gonna try not
> to make this sound rude, as that is not my motive of approach, however, I
> think it's about time that you all here the honest to God truth from me...
> So, truth you all need?  Truth you all get!  Does it really take 2 minutes
> just to simply say God, lord, Father, I dohn't know how to relate to what
> he's going through but, this is obviously putting him in mayyyyyyyyyjer
> distress...  Please, Lord, help him.  Amen.  What is my point by that?  It
> wouldn't a taken yall 10 seconds if that to pray that prayer...  i do not
> feel very confident that any one even is! praying though as I have gotten
> absolutely not even one reply on this, the fact that I haven't written the
> list any since that one post saying guess who's back...  Some of you all
> said, if you need prayer:  quote:  you know where to ask...  Well, if I
knew
> where to ask, then how come there is absolutely seemingly, and I do want
to
> make real sure that you all understand, I'm not wagging the finger, or
> blaming anyone specificly here...  For all i know maybe you all are!
> praying, but, the fact of the matter isn't so much are you all praying as
it
> is, I feel I'm receiving absolutely no interaction from the list...  You
all
> only write me when you feel it necessary, not when I find it necessary, or
> even more importantly:  when God finds it necessary.  i gotta say, i'm
real
> stumped at this point, and please don't anyone write me to say I am out of
> line by writing this mail.  Maybe I am? maybe I'm not.  if i am, i'm
sorry,
> but i am the type of person who very strongly believes in speaking my
> mind...  i do not like doing it, but I will when pushed over the limit...
> I'm gonna end on one last note just to say that I am extremely seriously
> thinking about unsubscribing and never rejoining again regardless what is
> said about me here..  Granted it may would be my loss, and yeah? maybe it
> would, maybe it wouldn't...  Again though, i make real clear:  I'm not
here
> to play the funny bone game...  When i ask for prayer, especially on
> something this serious, I do expect if nothing else at least some, maybe
not
> much, but at least some! encouragement...  i am not angry? however, i am
> extremely annoyed with you all...  There is an extremely fine line drawn
> between the two, but yes, there is a difference...  i'll leave it up to
yall
> to figure that one out, and if you can't, then Phil, perhaps you can
explain
> it to them as I'm cold, and freezing, I'm hungry, and I do not feel like
> sitting at this machine all mnorning typing...  You're a pastor so you
> should be able to explain it... (Well, were a pastor rather)
>
> Phil, please call me when you can...  I don't mind giving out my number on
> the list...  heck, it's in my signature so it's not like it's not well
> known...
>
> Call me:
>
> 704-296-2184
>
>
> if I'm not here, just leave a msg.
>
>
> if nothing else, I do expect at least! if not more, at least! one reply to
> this mail either on or off list, and i also! expect at least one reply on
> the mail I sent yesterday about my health problem.
>
>
> Good day sunshines.
>
>
> Chris.
>
>
> msn or windows Messenger:
>
> [log in to unmask]
>
> E-mail:  [log in to unmask]
>
> AOL messenger:  gilland1981
>
> phone:  704-296-2184
>
> have a wonderful day!