Hi Chris, as I said before sorry for not replying quickly to your posts, but
I just got back from California and I will be praying for your situation,  I
will pray for peace in your heart.

Lelia


----- Original Message -----
From: "Chris Gilland" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Tuesday, December 16, 2003 2:18 AM
Subject: majorly upset


> Folks, I really could use some prayer.  I really don't want to go into a
> whole lot of detail, because this is just so painful for me to talk about,
> but there are two very specific things write now on my mind;
>
> Firstly, be praying that God would bring me peace, joy, comfort, whatever
> you feel him leading you to say, over the situation with me being so
> distance as far as a relationship with my friend Hope.
>
>
> Secondly:  As most of you all know:  you know what happened to me
Christmas
> of 2001.  (about me being promised to see and meet jessica for the first
> time, which ended up not working.)  Truth is:  I still to this day, almost
4
> years later, have nightmares, and I don't just mean little nightmares of
> waking up to find that I wouldn't see her when promised...  O? no no!  I
> mean re'e'e'e'e'e'el bad nightmares.  We're talking so bad that it is
> practicly traumatizing.  i can't talk to my parents nor to her parents,
who
> a corse are my cousin and cousin inlaw...  None of them seem to get it...
> Quite frankly, I don't know either what draws me so close to her,
especially
> when she's only 9 and I've never yet metter...  And no...  it isn't that,
> thank you very much?  And for anyone on this list who accuses me publicly
of
> it being my OCD, may Vickie bannem at once!  (Half serious, half joking.)
> has nothing to do with that...
>
> Anyway, your prayers on both of these issues, are greatly appreciated.  I
> really dunno how much good they'll do, at this point, but I'd say it
doesn't
> hurt to have faith and try...
>
>
> Chris.
>