Lelia and all,
It seems that the lord showed me, at least once, that "seeking Him with your
whole heart" doesn't have to mean, "yes, I'm all in it, 100%, no
insincerity!" It could just mean that there is a tiny piece of my heart
that seeks Him consistently. When I think of it now, I know that the Bible
says that He will not quench a smouldering wick or break a bruised reed. He
has also shown me, through various experiences, that He listens to the part
of me that "acts like" I'm praying to Him, that He listens and answers such
prayers.
Sharon