Lynn,

One thing you said is,


I need deliverance from past junk, and I just can't seem to let go because
each time when I think that i have let go, something comes up to tell me
that I'm stil a failure.  I know the devil is a lier and there is no truth
in Him, so why do I still insist on carrying this, and why cant' I get
anything worthwhile?

I am glad you have recognize this because now you are exactly at the right
spot.  such feelings and pain is due to woundedness we have experienced.
The woundedness is based upon lies of the Enemy concerning our relationship
and image of the Lord.  These places of woundedness which need to be healed
is what the Bible calls, the renewing of the mind.  These lies are in prior
experiences which are contained in memories.  When current things happen
that are likewise pain, it taps into the lie and out comes the original
emotional pain associated with a similar event in life.  This is why the
feeling of failure is so common even among those of us who are born again
Christians.  These areas that need healing can be reached through prayer.
It is a one on one type of intercessory prayer using Matthew 18:19 as a
foundation, that is, if two of you agree on earth as touching anything they
shall ask, and so on.  My website contains dozens of testimonies of
personally healings I have experienced as well as many others by other
people, some whom are on echurch.  I also have a testimony called, When I
Flew Kites with Jesus which details exactly how a prayer session looks.  It
is on my website but I can also email it to you if that would help.  My
intercessory prayer ministry I have been doing for the last four years is
largely done by phone.

Phil.