Kathy,
I discover I still do a lot of repenting myself regardless of where
everybody else is spiritually. In fact, I like it because it brings me
closer to the Lord and brings healing into areas of my life I never dreamed
were there. We ended up with a total of four but whose counting. Church is
pretty informal for us but everyone, regardless if I have something to teach
or not, are welcome to speak up and talk any time. It makes for a good time
together because then it isn't just me telling everybody how and what to
think but I get to learn from others, too. Someone asked me the other day
how long before our meetings on Sunday do I prepare. I laughed because some
days it is the whole week and some Sunday, I prepare nothing because the
Lord gave me nothing. That usually means others have important things to
share we need to hear. I used to spend 30 to 40 hours a week, years ago,
preparing just one sermon. Now sometimes it all happens in 5 minutes and I
never do anything as complicated as I used to when preaching years ago. In
fact, I rarely raise my voice now and unfortunately, I have no pulpit upon
which to pound. That I miss. I have been noted to throw my notebook,
however. That happen more than once but one time, I got so angry, I threw
my notebook down on a coffee table sitting next to me. It knocked off a cup
of remaining cofee and spilled on to a lady's dress. I didn't care because
I was throwing her out of my house anyhow. I was her pastor years ago and
she is notorious for standing up and literally trying to take over a preach
or teaching service. She was so wrong this time, I made her leave. I
would, even to this day, been over backwards for her to help her but when
someone attempts to announce the Bible isn't true in my own house, I get a
little worked up. It was, and is, the only time anyone stood up to her
lying spirit she used to use to take over meetings. I would have bodily
picked her up but she, fortunately, left on her own. Yes, I've seen her
since then, she has been in one of our prayer meetings, and I even hugged
her. In fact, I actually love her, but the Enemy doesn't like that sort of
love so he stirs up horrible trauma and woundedness in this lady's life so
that she reacts publicly. Other than that, I'm as peaceful as a mouse and I
have never beat up anybody. Well, I was pretty mean to my little sister but
we won't go there.
Phil.
Phil.
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