Phil,
I agree.  Last Sunday, when we talked on the phone, I let him know 
that I wanted to talk to him about just such things, but now that he 
has  disappeared, I just have to trust that the Lord is talking to 
him and saying what I am not allowed to, yet.  This morning, as I was 
praying for him, I started running through the list of things that I 
wanted to talk to him about and the Lord seemed to ask, "You mean 
that you can't trust the holy Spirit to say these things without 
you?"  I got the point.  I also realized that as I was thinking over 
my list that I was beginning to become angry again and I realized 
that  wasn't the language of love, but my sinful self, still wanting 
to just get through to him and fix him.  Poor kid.  He is just so 
messed up.  Maybe I am too.  Lord, please just break through the lies 
and bring him to his senses.  Amen.
Mom


At 01:21 PM 2/11/2006, you wrote:
>Kathy,
>
>While sitting here praying, I got the distinct feeling Chris feels he cannot
>keep his parents rules.  I think he wants to be able to but the deception
>has become so blinding, he feels he just can't be a Christian.  I saw a boy
>sitting in a room and talking to someone who was asking him why he couldn't
>go home to live when this feeling, and it was a feeling and not just a
>thought that came to mind, registered in my emotions.  I have seen and heard
>this from people a lot and it's cover is deception but often there is
>something else underneath such as fear, guilt, shame, and who knows what.  I
>strongly feel the lie is that he cannot be a Christian.  And why not?
>Because, he feels, I'm not good enough.  Another lie.  The key is getting
>rid of the lies we believe about ourselves.  We can pray against those and
>that they will be exposed in his life.
>
>Phil.