Rhonda,
that is a beautiful prayer, but very hard to always mean.  Don't I know it!
Kathy


At 03:34 PM 1/24/2006, you wrote:
>You are so good at articulating what is in my heart, the very words I've
>never said, why did I not say them?  One reason is the weel meaning
>Christians who would remind that in everything I am to give thanks for this
>is the will  in Christ concerning you... so I am to be thankful I can't see,
>while they are thankful it's not them.
>God knows my  heart, and often I would tell those who said that, wouldn't it
>be better to be honest with the One who already  knows anyway, say for
>instance, Father, I want to be thankful for what you have allowed in my
>life, knowing that somehow it fits in to your plan, but presently I am
>finding it hard to be truly thankful for something I neither wanted, or
>asked for.  I don't see the purpose, and there is so much I don't know.
>Show me how to trust You, especially in the moments when my mind is filled
>with questions, when I don't understand, and when the words of others put me
>under condemnation for lack of belief.
>Rhonda
>
>-----Original Message-----
>From: The Electronic Church [mailto:[log in to unmask]] On
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>Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2006 10:26 AM
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>Subject: Re: for God's Glory a devotion that caused my question...
>
>Kathy,
>
>You wrote...
>"Why is it easier to believe that God can cure a back ache or a head ache
>that can't be seen and is totally subjective and not my eyes, which would
>actually require physical reconstruction?"
>
>Bingo sister! It is curious too why, and perhaps it is me only, that we
>hear of folks being healed of one leg longer than the other and not one
>like us with an obvious life changing ailment??? Why is that or is it just
>me? Also you are right in saying many walk away looking at our's or other's
>situations "Gee I'm thankful I'm not in that situation". I did even see
>some of that in the devotion Rhonda posted. It is sooooo easy for people to
>say "God has blessed you with the ability to handle your situation,
>praise  and glory to him who gave you patience and look all you learned
>from this situation", and then they hop in their car and drive
>home.  Granted I bet we do the same with those we feel have harder cards to
>play in life. It is a different perspective when   someone with an
>affliction gives glory for the illness, but to me, and I reluctantly say
>anything here as I said I don't want to pull at anyone's beliefs that
>enable them to cope, but I can't see  glory in that either.  Perhaps I'm
>not spiritually mature to that point yet, maybe that's it. I do however see
>a gigantic  opportunity for people to see God's glory in my healing. I know
>many blind vendors here in WI, plus having been blind for sometime now,
>gotten to know many blind folks, and of course we become pegged as the
>blind guy who does this or does that by sighted folks, and then of course
>our relatives, think of that impact. I wonder what they'd do or say or
>wonder if they saw me driving next week, looking them square in the eye,
>waving and smiling hahaha? Now there's opportunity for glory. And you know
>what? Isn't that what Jesus meant and demonstrated with the blind guy when
>the disciples asked him who sinned this man or his parents? And Jesus said
>neither but for the glory of God, then he spit in mud, swiped his eyes and
>said wash off dude and you'll be flashing them baby blues. And didn't the
>blind man give credit to Jesus? Who in turn gave credit to the
>Father?  Perhaps I am a bit *snapping fingers* what's the word I'm looking
>for... rebellious? Brash? No no, I don't know the word, upfront
>maybe???  anyway it is almost  rather than to say God wills me this way and
>get's glory out of it,  I  can't help  not hiding my thoughts in saying "OK
>God. Point blank here, no more games, no more fooling around with this
>thing. Do you heal or don't you? And if so, why not me so I can fix what is
>out of your will and move on with the life you given me in a way I was
>originally equipped to do! If you don't then I know the score and I'll fall
>in place and accept that."  I don't mean that disrespectfully, but I also
>can't feel one way and hide it from him. That's just foolishness.
>
>Brad