Karen,

I'll keep praying for God's will with the house.  I could see why it's hard
living month to month like that.

JulieMelton
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www.heart-and-music.com
Keep smiling!


----- Original Message -----
From: "Karen Carter" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Thursday, May 12, 2005 8:51 PM
Subject: My house situation


> Yesterday Wednesday.  I went to the office because of the repocession
> notice.  and let Chris the mang know I was going to welfare to see what
> they could do.  While I was there the mortgage company called her because
> I forgot to give them my new number.  Well they want a payment by the 18th
> at least 400.00.  Well I wrote chris a check for two hundred to hold the
> dogs back,  which means 200 short for the stupid card.  So now I need six
> hundred by the 18th.  And than it will start all over again for the nest
> month.
> well this is what the plan is.  I got on my knees I told God that I do
> love my
> house and would love to keep it.  But, I can not live like this way Lord.
> I cannot enjoy the house if I have to worry every month and take money
> from others to pay my bills. I told him it is ok  if he wants the house
> back that is o'kay because after all the house is not what keeps me alive
> and he had no where to even lay his head while he was on earth.  I can
> have just as good of a life in a litttle apartment as a house.  After all
> home is where the heart is. A building is a building.  Now I do love my
> home and hope I do not have to loose it but if I do I will go on. I told
> him the only way I could be released from this burden is a job or some
> rich person have compasion and give me 100.000 so I can pay off the house
> a chunk on the lot. pay the bills and get rid of the card. I don't want to
> go month to month and now it is all snow balling. I am one month behind on
> the lot, 2 on the house, 4 gas and one on lights.  The only reason I have
> cable and phone is Fawn pays the cable and Sharon pays the phone and that
> is not right.  Now  I did cry while on the phone and praying but that was
> more because of filling like a failure again.  I fill like everythin I
> have tried in life fails.   But fillings are not fact.
> I have peace so this is the plan
> So I went over to Riverfront Apts and put in an application.
> I hope my credit does not mess that up.  I went to welfare and they will
> not do nothing until I go to court and get the kicked out notice stamped
> by the court.  So if God wants me to give up the house I will get an
> apartment.  And I will take those three months it takes to get kick out to
> move.  And than If God does give me a miracle I will pay up and move back
> in.  I only asked God of one thing I would want him to do if he does take
> the house.  I asked him to make sure the next resident be a Christain and
> to love my house like I do.  When God showed me the light to promise me I
> would not loose my house it was as long as I wanted and he wanted me to
> have it.  So I do not really know what God wants but what ever he wants it
> is o'kay.  I can loose the house here but no one can take my Heavenly
> mansion he has for me.
> --
> Christ is either Lord of all or he is not Lord at all.
> Karen Carter '74
>