Kathy,
As we say in south Georgia, "bless your heart"! I am so sorry you are
having to experience this heart ache and be caused to question yourself. I
am thankful that you are a strong Christian who trusts the Lord's will and
judgements more than yo trust your own. He will take care of you. Stay
strong! Stay faithful and He will finish the good work He began in you and
in Chris.
Ned