Amen

sharon
----- Original Message -----
From: "Karen Carter" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Thursday, May 12, 2005 7:51 PM
Subject: My house situation


> Yesterday Wednesday.  I went to the office because of the repocession
notice.  and let Chris the mang know I was going to welfare to see what they
could do.  While I was there the mortgage company called her because I
forgot to give them my new number.  Well they want a payment by the 18th at
least 400.00.  Well I wrote chris a check for two hundred to hold the dogs
back,  which means 200 short for the stupid card.  So now I need six hundred
by the 18th.  And than it will start all over again for the nest month.
> well this is what the plan is.  I got on my knees I told God that I do
love my
> house and would love to keep it.  But, I can not live like this way Lord.
I cannot enjoy the house if I have to worry every month and take money from
others to pay my bills. I told him it is ok  if he wants the house  back
that is o'kay because after all the house is not what keeps me alive and he
had no where to even lay his head while he was on earth.  I can have just as
good of a life in a litttle apartment as a house.  After all home is where
the heart is. A building is a building.  Now I do love my home and hope I do
not have to loose it but if I do I will go on. I told him the only way I
could be released from this burden is a job or some rich person have
compasion and give me 100.000 so I can pay off the house a chunk on the lot.
pay the bills and get rid of the card. I don't want to go month to month and
now it is all snow balling. I am one month behind on the lot, 2 on the
house, 4 gas and one on lights.  The only reason I have cable and phone is
Fawn pays the cable and Sharon pays the phone and that is not right.  Now  I
did cry while on the phone and praying but that was more because of filling
like a failure again.  I fill like everythin I have tried in life fails.
But fillings are not fact.
> I have peace so this is the plan
> So I went over to Riverfront Apts and put in an application.
> I hope my credit does not mess that up.  I went to welfare and they will
not do nothing until I go to court and get the kicked out notice stamped by
the court.  So if God wants me to give up the house I will get an apartment.
And I will take those three months it takes to get kick out to move.  And
than If God does give me a miracle I will pay up and move back in.  I only
asked God of one thing I would want him to do if he does take the house.  I
asked him to make sure the next resident be a Christain and to love my house
like I do.  When God showed me the light to promise me I would not loose my
house it was as long as I wanted and he wanted me to have it.  So I do not
really know what God wants but what ever he wants it is o'kay.  I can loose
the house here but no one can take my Heavenly mansion he has for me.
> --
> Christ is either Lord of all or he is not Lord at all.
> Karen Carter '74
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