I will pray for George and especially his wife.  I will pray that the Lord
will help her to except the facts.  I know it has to be hard.  I don't think
my Mom really excepts the fact that I am blind, because she says I will be
healed on Earth, it's just in his timeing.  I tell her, if it is in his will
I will be healed, if not I will see in heaven.  I still don't think she gets
it.

Amy
----- Original Message -----
From: "Phil Scovell" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Saturday, April 30, 2005 2:57 PM
Subject: You need to help me pray


> In talking with George in recent days, I have learned some very unsettling
> things.  I tried calling George one day this week and their answering
> machine came on.  The out going message was still their daughter's voice
> recording the message.  I said something to George about it that day and
he
> said that Vivian will not allow him to change it.  When I asked why, he
said
> that his wife still believes that Jennifer is going to come walking up to
> the front door so she will not do anything with her clothes or personal
> things nor will she allow the answering machine to be changed because
> Jennifer is going to be resurrected.  Now there are two things about this
I
> want to say.  First of all, I am the first in line to believe God can
still
> raise people from the dead.  Secondly,  I am the first to say this isn't
one
> of those cases where it is going to happen.  I know why, too.  Jennifer
> wanted to die.  How do I know this?  Jennifer told her older brother, he
is
> married and has several children, a year ago, If I die, don't cry over me.
> Since Jennifer's death, they have discovered that her room is filled with
> all the drugs that Jennifer was supposed to be taking.  They even were the
> some of the drugs that would keep the bacteria that killed her from
> developing.  Sandy, my wife, types this sort of thing often.  Young
people,
> but it can be old people as well, often stop, at some point, taking their
> medications because they are sick of it.  They decide in their heart, I
will
> either live or die but anything is better than this.  Jennifer was also
> living a lie the last three or four years of her life.  Some of what she
was
> doing was illegal and she was almost arrested once but George was able to
> fix the problem before that happened.  Yes, Vivian knows all of this.  So
> what's the problem?  First, what Vivian is facing isn't all that uncommon.
> Her feelings are based upon several characteristics of grief alone but it
> isn't just the grief, in her case, causing, what we might consider,
bizarre
> thinking.  First, Vivian is holding herself responsible for her daughter's
> death.  This is a lie of the Enemy, of course, but right now, Vivian
doesn't
> know this.  why?  She is being deceived.  Secondly, it is her own motherly
> instincts working against her.  A mother is going to feel responsibility
for
> her daughter, or son, including their behavior, sickness, problems, and
> everything else about them.  Why?  Because, they gave birth to them.
> Father's feel these same feelings for their offspring but for different
> reasons.  Take my word for it; I know.  In Vivian's situation, however, my
> spirit tells me that the death of their daughter is related to something
> earlier.  For example, I know that her mother died about seven years ago.
> Only the Lord knows everything else that is related to the way Vivian is
> acting right now.  George emailed me this morning and told me that he sat
> Vivian down and had a long talk with her last night.  He explained that
> their daughter wouldn't be coming back and that their daughter wanted to
> die.  Oh, by the way, Jennifer also told her brother, her saving hope was
> getting new lungs.  If she didn't get those, she said, she was a goner.
> When the lung transplant was canceled, she said she was going to die.  New
> lungs isn't the Lord.  He was to be her focus; not new lungs because He
can
> give someone new lungs if they are putting Him first in their belief
system.
> Jennifer was not doing that.  I know this for many more reasons than I am
> mentioning here.  Regardless, last night, after George talked with his
wife,
> she sat there as if she never heard a word and nothing has changed.  So,
as
> part of all of this that has been going on, I wanted you to know more so
you
> could pray.  Grief is a very odd thing.  It can last for years.  People
can
> have their entire lives totally changed due to grief.  Regardless of how
odd
> the symptoms may be, grief is normal, up to a point, but believe me, as
one
> speaking from personal experience, grief can mask attacks of the Enemy.
> When my mom died two years ago, the Enemy tried to fool me into thinking
> something about myself, related to my mother, which took several days
before
> the dust settled enough for me to hear the truth from the Lord that set me
> free from a trap.  What Vivian, and George for that matter, are facing, is
a
> biggy but it is also just as big of opportunity for the Lord to bring
> healing to places that may have remained covered for their entire lives.
> Just keep praying for them when you think of them.
>
> Phil.