I have switched churches before but now I'm back where I started.  I
still feel a little uncomfortable at church.  Our church has some problems,
don't they all but one of the major ones is with our pastor not doing all
that he should.  I don't really mean to talk about people but I find that
many people at church look at me different.  There is a few that don't but I
feel limited to what I can do because of everyone else.  For example last
year in bible school I helped out with the nursery.  I've always loved
taking care of little ones.  I didn't know for sure that I was going to get
to help due to finishing up training at the Department for the Blind.  So,
I'm suppossed to help one of the ladys at church with the nursery and when I
go in the first day her daughter is there helping her, which is fine because
I wasn't sure that I would be there.  We only had two or three kids and
instead of her daughter helping somewhere else the other nights she stayed
with us and that was okay I guess.  But I got the empression that they
thought I couldn't do anything because all I did was sit there.  When we
went to music another lady thought I was going to fall down the stairs,
which I wasn't.  I knew exactly where I was going and the lady I was helping
told me she should have been watching me and I told her that she didn't have
to watch me, that I was there to help.  So we went to music and sat down to
wait for the group before us to leave.  The lady I'm helping sit down beside
me with a little one and the other kid we had took off so instead of letting
me hold the baby she picked him up and took off.  I really felt useless.  I
ended up going to help with my Mom's class.  the other nights.  I don't
know, I guess it is going to just take them time to get used to me being
blind and being able to trust me.

Amy
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From: Pat Ferguson <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Monday, January 24, 2005 11:45 AM
Subject: Re: Right Church


> Vicki,
>
> I do agree with you.
>
> I would love to go to Church, but I would rather stay at home and worship
> The Lord with all of you, my Christian friends, than feel uncomfortable in
> a Church.
>
> I don't like being judged like I have in the past by some Churches.
>
> Just my two cents worth.
>
> Love and Blessings,
> Pat Ferguson
> At 04:41 AM 1/23/05, you wrote:
> >Have recently been thinking that I have some what of a jaded attitude.
Was
> >just thinking last night of the years I have loved going to church and
felt
> >I was there for the right reason for the most part.  Oh there were those
> >times, that all of us have, of course.  but now I find it's difficult to
> >attend.  I've been attending a church for the last almost year and a half
on
> >a regular basis, and am not managing to fit in anywhere.  Though I love
the
> >sermon, and the music, and worship of the Lord, I seem to be just warming
a
> >bench.  I can do that much easier at home and have a cumffy chair in
> >addition.    Experiences with churches in the last couple of years have
> >caused me to search my heart to see if there is any unforgiveness for
church
> >leadership who really inflicted pain on me.    Having re-visited those
> >experiences, asking the Lord to show me any unforgiveness, I feel that
area
> >is settled as far as I can settle it.  But in a properly functioning
church,
> >should there not be a place of service for every member of the body of
> >Christ?    And what about the verses in Hebrews 10:24-25.  New Living
puts
> >it this way.
> >
> >Think of ways to encourage one another to outbursts of love and good
deeds.
> >
> >And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but
> >encourage and warn each other, especially now that the day of his coming
> >back again is drawing near.
> >
> >I like that outburst of good deeds.
> >
> >We won't have that perfect church until heaven, but the church today is
> >severely hampered, and misses out because members of the body aren't in
> >their places erving, sharing their God-given gifts, ministering and being
> >ministered to..  I'm not just talking about the up front people that we
> >might see every Sunday like the pastor or the worship teams.  But so that
I
> >don't get on a soap box, wonder what others of you think?
> >
> >I'm sure glad that we can assemble here on the net.  The physical
assembly
> >is still, however, important.
> >
> >
> >
> >Vicki
>
>
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