Phil,

Thanks for this. I'm afraide I must agree with you, even though I hate to
admit that Monday night of this week, something happened to me.

I was laying in bed crying, and I have been struggling with many things, as
I have been for the past few weeks. Something told me that I wasn't loving,
and that I was a bad person, and that no one loved me. Something even told
me to go and take a bunch of EllaVille to end it all. I was feeling pretty
horrible. Of course, I did not do that. I know that it was a demon telling
me this, and I even know that it was a demon that caused some things to
happen, and caused me to react in the way I have with some situations.

I think some times when Satan knows we are trying to keep a closer walk
with Jesus, He loves to get his nose in our lives, and attack us. I believe
this is what has been happening to me.

Phil, could it be that I'm possessed with demons? I sure hope not.

I love The Lord with all my heart, and I was doing soooooooooooo good,
until a few weeks ago and things happened, and depression really set in.

I've been way too emotional lately, everything makes me cry, and I don't
like it.

God Bless you all.

Love,
Pat Ferguson

At 10:43 PM 6/1/04, you wrote:
>      I know this isn't widely accepted, and most certainly not
>easily accepted by most Christians, but demons do talk to us as
>Christians.  Worse than this, they can actually put their
>feelings upon us and speak in the first person.  This, of course,
>makes us immediately think we have said it or we have felt it.  As
>I said, most Christian find this difficult, if not down right
>impossible, to believe.   they jump up and down and demand I show
>them in the Bible where this is true and sometimes I am called a
>heretic, a false teacher, and only the Lord knows what they say
>when I can't hear them.  Regardless, it is true and if you choose
>not to believe it is possible, then God bless you anyway.  when it
>happens to you, however, don't forget where you heard it and what
>you heard about it so you can Scripturally deal with it.
>
>      I am bringing this up right now because, in recent days, I
>have had demons speak to me twice in the first person and even
>attempt, in one case, to put their feelings upon me to confirm
>what they said was true.  After all, if it feels true, it has to
>be true.  Right?  Wrong.  Anyhow, here are the two separate
>experiences I want to share with you.  Just in case it happens to
>you, of course, some day a hundred years from now or something
>like that.
>
>      A couple of weeks ago, I wasn't doing anything in particular
>except for thinking about something in my life.  I suddenly heard
>in my thoughts, "I'm a drunk."  Not, "You are a drunk," but, "I am
>a drunk."  I almost laughed out loud.  Why?  Because not only am I
>not a drunk but even has a teenager, I hated the taste of
>alcohol.  Twice, in my life, I tried drinking beer; just plain
>old beer.  I got about a half a can down before handing it to a
>friend to finish.  So, in my entire life time, I probably haven't
>had enough alcoholic beverage to even fill one beer can.  Now
>LSD, marijuana, hash, speed, and other related drugs is a
>different story.  Booze, I hated.  I didn't even like wine, come
>to think of it, but my point should be clear by now; I hate
>anything alcoholic.
>
>      So, here I am, thinking about something totally unrelated to
>booze, and I hear in my thoughts, "I am a drunk."  Sure I am.  So
>what was the source of this lie?  I immediately began looking,
>through prayer of course, for the source.  I knew, without
>question, it was demonic, but why did a demon take that particular
>time to try and plant a lie in the thought stream of my daily
>life.  The answer would take more than a book to explain.  My
>point is that a demon did speak those words in my thoughts to try
>and gain a foothold in my life through an implanted lie.
>Furthermore, he spoke in the first person to make me think I was
>the one who thought it.
>
>      Now, just before writing this article, it happened again but
>with a different theme.  I was seated at my desk doing little of
>nothing, other than reading email, and when I replied and sent the
>message off, suddenly, in my stream of consciousness, I heard, and
>felt, "I hate myself."  Wow.  That could be true.  Maybe I do hate
>myself.  I'm such a terrible person, a loser, and a failure.
>Maybe I really do hate myself.  Nope, I didn't go that route of
>thinking.  Why?  I am learning not everything that pops into my
>thought life is of God or even of me.
>
>      First of all, in this case, I knew I did not hate myself.
>Why should I?  God has revealed so many wonderful things to me and
>how He is my Father and how He spends time with me and how He
>hears and answers my prayers.  So why should I remotely consider
>the possibility that I hate myself when God loves me.  Of course,
>I am perfectly aware that others may indeed hate me and that it
>could have been a demonic influence associated with that person.
>After all, I pray with many people and some of them have demonic
>activity all around them.
>
>      Then it hit me.  I didn't say it; a demon said it in the
>first person to try and deceive me into thinking I said it so it
>must be true.  Well, it isn't true; I don't hate myself.  so what
>does a person do in such a case?  He, or she, takes every thought
>captive.
>
>      Here is what I did.  I stopped typing and prayed.  Since I
>was alone, I prayed out loud and I said these words.  "In the name
>of the True Lord Jesus Christ, I call to attention the demon that
>just said, "I hate myself," and tried putting the emotional
>feelings on me to make me think it was true.  Furthermore, I call
>to attention all those under your authority for the same reason.
>Note.  You do this because it is rare that only one demon is
>hanging around and pestering you.  They almost always have a bunch
>of buddies with them to back up their wickedness.  Praying in this
>manner, you lump them all together and you aren't stuck dealing
>with demon after demon until you get rid of all of them.  So back
>to my prayer.
>
>      Once I had called them all to attention in the name of the
>True Lord Jesus Christ, I then say, "I bind your words spoken
>against me and strip you of your armor and weapons and place the
>blood of Jesus Christ upon them.  I now bind you all together as
>one and I turn you over to the Chief Shepherd, the True Lord Jesus
>Christ, and I command you to leave and to go right now to the
>place the True Lord Jesus Christ wants you to go.  Be gone, now,
>in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.
>
>      What do you suppose happened immediately following this
>prayer?  The feeling of worthlessness vanished.  Was it all in my
>mind?  Was I just making all this up or are there really demons
>sent to try and deceive us?  You decide because I already know the
>truth and the truth has set me free.
>
>Phil.
>
>
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