Hey, Jen

Thanks so much for such a wonderfully encouraging note about your growth in
JESUS while you were gone.  There will still be ups and downs I'm sure you
know but you are such a blessing to us we know you were a blessing to all
those in Arkansas and this note is just one example how that is true.

Paul
----- Original Message -----
From: "Jenifer Barr" <[log in to unmask]>
To: <[log in to unmask]>
Sent: Thursday, December 18, 2003 7:11 AM
Subject: Update on me.


> Hi Everyone.  *warning*  This may be a little lengthy... so if you don't
> want to read it... feel free to press the delete key.
>
> I left arkansas on october 23rd and arrived at my new apartment late that
> night.  I was so blessed in that my mom and others had it all set up for
me
> before i arrived.  I mean... everything was in place... from furniture to
> potholders!
>
> God was so present with me in arkansas.  I felt so alone sometimes, but He
> always was their to hold and comfort me.  My dad's death was the worse
thing
> i could imagine, but i have a father God that loves me and will never
leave
> me.  I don't have peace about Dad's death... meaning I don't know if I'll
> see him again in heaven, but i know God is just and true.  Dad never
> rejected the Gospel, he was saved before he went in to the army, but
walked
> away after.  I don't know if I believe in once saved always saved... I
want
> to... every part of me wants to... but I don't want to believe something
> false.  Dad never rejected the gospel when I knew him... always allowed
> people to pray... took me to church.
>
> I made so many life-long friends in Arkansas in the short time I was
their.
> Some believers that I know God put in my path to support and help me
through
> that time, and some non-believers who i pray for daily.  I thank God for
His
> love, mercy, grace, and loyalty.  No matter how far we stray... how far we
> want to run... he pulls us back.  It's like a rubberband... he lets us go
so
> far... then snaps us back.  After my dad died... I knew i had two choices.
> Run away from the One i knew would never run away from me... or cling to
Him
> like a life-raft.  I chose the later.  It may not seem like it sometimes,
> but I know the Lord is my only Salvation... not the sleeping Pills i had
to
> start to take... not the nonbelieving boyfriend i had after dad's death...
> nothing.
>
> The man who hit my dad got one year probation.  His liscense revoked for
> that year, and if he violates any of it... six months in jail.  I was
upset
> at first, but i realized... with Gods help... this man is going through
more
> guilt than I could ever imagine.  I pray for him also.  I pray that God
> gives me the privilege to meet or talk to him somehow and pray for him.  I
> know it's only God that's giving me this desire, because I couldn't do it
in
> myself.
>
> I truely thank you all for praying for me during my absense.  I love you
> all.  I'm glad to be back.  Please accept my sencere appology for being an
> ungreatful brat before I left the last time.  God is good... all the time!
> Jenifer Barr
>
> "I can do all things through Christ who strengthins me."
> Phil 4:13
>
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