i'm warning yall.  This is quite darn lengthy, but I promise ya:  It's worth
the entire read from beginning to end as I do have some pretty deep
questions.  Get ready, cause again, I say:  this? is?  deep!

how many of you all believe in gardian angels?  Besides you Phil, i already
know that you do.

i've never had a spiritual encounter with one, however, I do know now more
than ever in my life, that i do have a gardian angel.  I just know it, and
know that she is constantly at work.  Granted, she might only be 5 years
old, I know well enough that even 5 isn't too young to be one...  If you
don't believe me, then explain this to me:

Why every time that I see her, which is almost hardly never, is it mearly
impossible for either of us to keep from both crying histerically at the
exact same time?  Why is it that even though she's 5, she still has the
maturity to call me every single day, and not even miss one.  let's put it
this way, it's extre'ee'ee'eemly dangerous when a child of this age has
neumonia yet, even then, when she once did at age 4, about a year ago, even
then! she made it a point each day, even if it meant her constantly coughing
etc. she made it a point even then to call me...  She's even at her age now,
told me that she would die for me...  She said this firstly for the first
time, at age 3.  Now, if you can sit here and tell me, that a 3 year old is
going to have the branes to know what it means to give and lay down their
life for someone, then I wanna know what child you are talking about and
would ya mind me adopting it?  LOL!  only kidding.  Back on a more serious
note though:  This is a really deep topic, and i don't have all the answers;
I don't think any of us do:  I think angels, may or may not, be physically
formed.  It really depends on your perspective as to how they will end up
being perceived by you as an individual.  And if anyone's raising the
question now, well I have a very dear relative, or friend, who I think might
be a gardian angel, but how do I know...  This is gonna be hard for me to
explain if you haven't already experienced the feeling, andc Phil, maybe you
can help me reword this a little more simply.  That is my point.  You, as
yourself, won't know!  you won't ever know!  it's your spirit, and your soul
that will.  Then through those indications, you can then as a person
physically, begin to take on the ability of knowing.

let me give an example, and I don't think this is gonna really clarify, but
it might...

i thought all along that my cousin jessica was my gardian angel.  Well, I
thought this up until literally last night...  Yes, I still love her, O my
God!  I'd die and willingly rot, and burn...  OK, that's getting
inappropriate, so I'll stop that comment, but you get the poihnt.  Yes, I
still would, however, there's a very big difference in love, verses angel
gardianship...  I can't explain it...  it could take under my belief, years
before you'd ever know, i just find it funny, how the first time I ever met
this person who now I know it really is, at 9 months old, right then and
there, the first time I ever fed her her bottle, and held her, even, for
that matter:  I knew, right away, this relationship was faaaaar! more than
just friendship, or love...  i think the thing was though:  I purposely
tried to dismiss it, as it sort a scared me...  No? not cause of that...  No
way!  it just did, more in general, i guess cause i new we lived over 1000
miles away, and I didn't want to cling to her too much, as I knew if I did,
it would wreck me...  Well, sure enough, o, it wrecked me all right!  Nearly
physically killed me! to be more precise.  So, my question really well,
yeah, one, is, how many of you all believe that this day in time, God really
does send angels through the physical formities of a child, or an adult, and
I'm not refering to romance, o she's my angel, I mean more deeply,
spiritually.  OK, I'm gonna say something, and if you all choose to object
to it, then, ok.  but I do wanna get one thing very clear:

just as you all have the God given right to express your beliefs, I feel I
openly should be able to as well, so if you all disagree, then fine, but
let's agree to disagree, and not start up any anamosity.

I myself, believe that God is the creator of all people and all things.  he
created people in his own image...  however! there are certain people who
he's specificly created at some time or another who do have God speaking
through them...  um...  Gosh this is difficult to explain...  i'm trying,
really I am...  but it's almost on a spiritual level beyond physical
comprehention.  Think of it like this:

When a human is born, God has a plan for them quite obviously.  Whether they
choose to follow that plan, is a different thing altogether...  but
anyway....  I feel like that God has created angels in the form of people.
No no no no, don't get the wrong idea here.  i'm not saying that they are
part of, or have a part of the trenity, I'm saying that even though they are
an angel, they don't have a haylo or wings.  yes, I think that there are
those types, but they are only seen more rarely...  i think though that God,
has created certain people to be "gardian angels."  I feel like they may
have gosh... what's the word....  not.... rejuvinated... that's no where
close to what I'm looking for, nor is carma anywhere close...  I'm not that
spiritually sick... LOL!  Um...  It's more like...  They... were in heaven,
I guess is what I'm trying to say, when they really were born first...
Then, through means of another birth, after God has maybe told them his plan
for them, he sends them to earth, as a baby through means of another humanly
birth.  This goes back to an interesting question that was presented to my
pastor by myself.  Again, this is deep, so bare with me...

When we are created:  Were we created and right now, actually, we already
are in heaven, but don't know it...  Don't stop reading, I have my reason of
thinking, and you might find it facenating if you read on...  I know that
last comment may offend people, but if you'd let me explain, I don't think
it will in the long run...

See, often times, I've heard that when you die, it's like a new awakening.
Well, I really stopped and thought about that for a bit...  What if... we
are already dead, we're already in heaven, yet, are totally asleep there and
not aware of it...  What is here now on earth that we're experiencing is
only a dream.  We think it's reality though as we've never seen reality
which is, hince?  Right!  Heaven!  or in some people's case?  Hell!

So, really we're already there, we just don't know it...  kind of a freakie
concept.  Anyway, I could go on with these philisofical questions for days
upon years, but I don't wanna bore yall, so just let me know about this
first, and we'll take it from there.


Take care.


Chris.