Christmas everyone shopping, happy music everywhere, and even snow! and
Ben was getting better! yet I felt sad.  I know it isn't the meaning of
Christmas,we overdo  and  the gift thing, but... still I wanted to get
something for Jenna and Christa.  I thought of asking my parents for
help.  But I remembered how it was growing up, they either refused my
requests, saying they didn't have the money, or worse yet made me feel
awful for asking.
I thought about these things, and of how I tend to see God as a father
who could but often doesn't help.  I was almost as afraid of asking Him
as I had been my parents.
The truth is however, that God is not like my parents He knows what I
have need of even before I ask Him, and He wants me to tell  Him of my
needs and feelings.  Realizing that God loves me all over again about a
week ago I told God of my feelings, of my gratitude that Ben was getting
better, of my sadness of missing him, and of my desire to get a present
for Jenna and Christa.
And today, through a friend God answered, the card had a check and since
it is extra money I can get something for Jenna and Christa.  So God
didn't think my wishes were foolish,He didn't say no, or make me feel
badly for asking, he used one of His own to show me that he is a Father
who provides for His children, more than what they need, but what they
wish for.
So today I know the real meaning of Christmas, It's not trees covered in
lights,
not the ground covered in a blanket of white snow, but it is love, that
was first given so very long ago, and love that is still given today,
I couldn't see it if a bright star were shining in the sky, but I can
feel the warmth of God's love sent in a Christmas card from across the
country.

I just wanted to share with you all, of our Father's provision and of
His Love, the greatest gift of all!!!!!!

Rhonda