Paul, and Everyone,

Yes, you are so right. I'll never stop loving people and giving those
lovings and squeezings. I get so much love in return, it's incredible, and
it all comes from God. I give all glory to Jesus for all lovings and
squeezings.

I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression, in 1996. I took Zoloft for a few
years, and then I got off of it, but now, I'm on LexaPro and EllaVille, for
Anxiety and Depression. It is working pretty good for the most part.

I must go now, and get lunch, but I'll writ to you all more later.

May God richly bless you all, my precious loving ones.

Love you all, bunches,
Pat who is filled with love



At 11:57 PM 10/27/03 -0500, you wrote:
>Hey, Sweet Pat
>
>It is perfectly normal to have that feeling of depression after all you and
>Vernon have been through.  We've all faced it in little ways of having a big
>triumph in our lives, winning a great victory, physically or emotionally, or
>having a great holiday, etc. then suddenly feeling so let down and sad for
>no apparent reason.  It is simply a totally normal reaction to your body
>getting back in cycle after all the adrenalin that has been pumping into it
>lately to get you through.  A lot like what happens when you eat a lot of
>sugar and feel very good for a little while then suddenly so down.  So
>please understand that, and just say "this, too, shall pass."  It will.
>
>Feeling sad after great victories is also a great trick of the enemy.  He
>can be counted on to try to bring us down every time the LORD uses us in any
>way, and the more the LORD uses us and the greater the possible result the
>greater the sadness because the enemy wants to try to distract us from going
>forward to even greater victories once we're "on a roll" as they say.  So
>don't pay attention to him.  He keeps trying to make us feel that our
>emotions are so important and have so much to do with doing the LORD's will,
>etc. but it really has very little to do with anything.  So cry and let your
>body work these things out of your system, but mentally keep knowing that it
>makes not a difference in the world.  The LORD has blessed you and Vernon in
>bringing you through all these things lately and has used those things to
>bless other folks, so keep going forward even if it's in tears, knowing
>those who sow in tears will reap with joy.
>
>Now if you feel depressed all the time, for a long time, and there seems no
>way out, for no known reason (although you do have those reasons above), you
>should consider seeing a doctor since it could be clinical depression.  But
>that is so often over diagnosed and doctors are so quick to force pills on
>people.  So please think about the above reasons first and see if you don't
>feel better soon first.
>
>Meanwhile know that we love you and are very proud of you and all you mean
>to us.  There is no reason to be depressed as long as there is chocolate
>somewhere in the world.  Smile.  And sweet sisters like you.
>
>Paul who actually read on a Dove chocolate wrapper today "A world without
>chocolate is too horrible to contemplate."  And the chocolate was a gift so
>I had to eat it!  Grin.
>----- Original Message -----
>From: "Pat Ferguson" <[log in to unmask]>
>To: <[log in to unmask]>
>Sent: Monday, October 27, 2003 7:42 PM
>Subject: Depression
>
>
> > Dear Loving EChurch Family,
> >
> > For the most part, I've been doing very well. There are some times,
> > however, when I feel really sad for no reason, and then the tears come way
> > too easily. I hate the depression, and I hate what it does to me when I
> > can't controll the sadness and the tears.
> >
> > I want to be happy all the time, and be full of love, but right now, I'm
> > not feeling that way at all. I need lots of lovings and squeezings.
> >
> > Please pray for me, because I really hate this depression and feeling the
> > way I do, it's horrible.
> >
> > I love you all a lot, and I hope I don't short out my keyboard because
>it's
> > not wireless.
> >
> > God Bless you all.
> >
> > Love,
> > Pat Ferguson