Regrets I've not kept contact.  Since Thanksgiving through January I've

focused on vindicating the financial and emotional losses suffered over the

past two years.



Those friends and family who manage(d) to actually get me out for a few

enjoyable or chore-based hours get "first takes" (chatting on the phone

usually doesn't cut it);  I've scant energy for anything after my

Monday-to-Friday market monitoring given too variable health.   With

"winter" weather prompting stay at home (though we've experienced mostly

moderate, so far) December through February seem the best months to leverage

the financial markets promise.



Be assured. I'm not enjoying this process.  The fear, self doubt, and

emotional pain from my prior losses still recur with each transaction and

day.  I suspect death row inmates have similar senses of doom and gloom.

Keeping poise, detachment, strategy, tactics, and discipline requires

exhaustive effort.  Attempting lucrative transactions in a volatile market

yields problematic results.  There transpire missed opportunities from

mistakes, delayed information, and increased difficulty placing timely

trades while tracking many stocks and options.  Everything's further

compromised by slow Internet bandwidth and an ailing computer that requires

upgrading or replacement, has a balky hard drive with bald spots, and

threatens imminent collapse--like the rest of me.



If life and friendships can be worthwhile again changes will need to be in

place by spring.  I hope that no further major losses occur.  I'd like those

dearest to me to know they're ever in my thoughts and heart, though time and

distance exact their tolls, keep me solitary.



Until spring or an occasional respite, I wish you health, happiness, and a

cup of Kona for relief from the daily grind.



S.

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